Time for a change
Time for me to take charge of my feelings. Thank you all for your concern. To those who messaged me, left comments and texted.
It was a whole lot of bad feelings that needed to finally be released.
I can't let that take over me. Those thoughts and feelings are not who I am. I am a generally happy and optimistic person.
I removed myself from many pages and groups associated with that event. I had to get away. I stayed on several just in case someone had a quick question about travel and lodging. But aside from that, no more liking, no more sharing links, no more commenting unless I have useful information. I want to support my friends, but there's a limit to what I feel comfortable doing now.
But I did let it all out and my friend said we're all good. I haven't talked to her since then. I'm sure she's shared her thoughts with others about what I said. I'm sure she didn't like any of what I said. I should have been honest from the start and I wasn't. I let it fester.
BE HONEST with your friends. Don't keep those emotions bottled up. If you have a problem you talk to your friends. I learned the hard way.
But I'm going to hold my head up high and move on. There's more to me then that.
It all almost killed an entire fandom for me. It probably almost killed several friendships, too.
But I need to look out for myself and little by little remove what makes the those bad feelings emerge and reconnect with what made it good.
It was a whole lot of bad feelings that needed to finally be released.
I can't let that take over me. Those thoughts and feelings are not who I am. I am a generally happy and optimistic person.
I removed myself from many pages and groups associated with that event. I had to get away. I stayed on several just in case someone had a quick question about travel and lodging. But aside from that, no more liking, no more sharing links, no more commenting unless I have useful information. I want to support my friends, but there's a limit to what I feel comfortable doing now.
But I did let it all out and my friend said we're all good. I haven't talked to her since then. I'm sure she's shared her thoughts with others about what I said. I'm sure she didn't like any of what I said. I should have been honest from the start and I wasn't. I let it fester.
BE HONEST with your friends. Don't keep those emotions bottled up. If you have a problem you talk to your friends. I learned the hard way.
But I'm going to hold my head up high and move on. There's more to me then that.
It all almost killed an entire fandom for me. It probably almost killed several friendships, too.
But I need to look out for myself and little by little remove what makes the those bad feelings emerge and reconnect with what made it good.