Long time
It's been a while. Lots has occurred. Basically, I'm at home right now because being at school is so scary and overwhelming that I can't breathe. I think I've lost myself. I've become so far removed from my mind that I don't know what decisions to make because I don't know what I really feel, what I really want. The lack of sleep doesn't help either. So here I am, at home, going to bed early so I can wake up and return to the place that asks me so many questions I can't answer. I'm just scared. I just want to remove myself for a while and see the big picture, I just can't and I don't know how. I want to make the right decisions, ones that will lead me where I want to be, even if I don't know where that is. I just wish I knew.
Goodnight
Goodnight