suppression , does it have a purpose?

[ravenheart78]

one of my early memories i remember my preschool teacher or kindegarten teacher telling me not to yawn so loudly ( a subconscious response to airflow) i tried each time but felt like something was lost , now as an adult i know something was, it was the beginning of society deciding i had to change to become part of it......
now its like something is calling me back to the me that was never allowed to be