Written First night but not posted til Monday
Dearest Friends,
As we continue our journey in 2005 there is much you may or may not know. The year was full of us growing in some ways and de-evolving in other ways.You were all in one way or another there to help or inhibit these processes. My resolutions are not few and are mosstly not vague.Take your time reading this, you may learn something new bout me and maybe even yourself.
I sit here at 1:05 in the morning on January 1st 2005 and I am thinking back upon this year. We grew on so many levels its amazing. Lisa, I think you went on a rollercoaster ride this year in your emotional and mental health, you have earned a place in my heart for keeping spirits high even when we were annoyed with you. Kim, we've grown close recently and I can't imagine my life with out you squished somewhere in it(and it is mutual but I have to talk to you) you're a ray of sunshine. Keri, you have grown to have a lot of my respect and trust (which is hard to earn) even if I had let you down. Chris, my darling boy, you have grown into a beautiful young man and easily became a part of my life and quickly grown to mean a lot to me. Johnny, you are , well, you. Youre a constant in my life that is a good thing to have. Tim...you know what you are to me and what I think of you, I dont need to repeat it. Ian, you too are a constant in my life, that is sometimes faded but always manages to shine thru in one way or another.Ryan, you are...something. Alisha (Cooper)we gotta get together more often, but what I do know of you is that you're intentions are usually good even if the results aren't what you expected. Laura, you're, perverted, so we work well together;) . Alicia (Rueter) you have welcomed me into your life when I needed it and made me so comfortable, same goes for Kevin who I doubt has a livejournal, thank you. Freddy, what can I say? Dont eat Pork!!! :) I might be able to back it up this time. Dan you are awesome and I can only hope to get to know yo better. Krista, I'm sorry I had to cancel our plans :( you rock!!!!. Graham, you'll be alright. Brian, you'll get fixed don't worry, or ya know what do worry. Joe, you'll see. if i forgot you my apologies please leave a comment and i'll post accordingly.
During the years changes there were many of you who helped me along or screwed something up but guess which ones I'm gonna tell you. Ryan, you started it (you bastard :-P) you gave me my first kiss standing in the jr. high north. I guess the whole thing was my fault, with the hugging freshman year, you held my hand so I could do it and not be frightened...actually it wasnt my fault at all, I remember when Chicken and I were w/e you and Mikey Cuddy talked to me and then at lunch you held my hand., that lasted a good two and a half months-ish.Timothy, ugh, you are such a boy (unlike orangutan :-P) you were so awesome to me, that one was Keri's fault :-) ((love you keri)) you went away for a while then when you came back I noticed things had changed then you left again then when you came back... bam. I swore I loved you, I still swear I did but everytime I see you it changes. Like more friendly love then "love" if that was love. I so just lost my calliope forthis paragraph to a need for shoe polish, hey ya ever notice Polish and polish are spelled the same?
Okay Resolution time (like I'll own up to any of them):
1) My lungs deserve better. thats the last of anything that damages them.
2) Last year (since september 6th or so) I have been so close minded to some stuff, I put myself in my own little bubble thats gonna stop
3) Ya'all know I volunteer at the nursing home and that I adore a lot of the residents, there's a woman by the name of Annie Craig that thinks I'm awesome and I must visit her more often since she turned 99 and she rocks her Gaelic accent to the max.
4) I'm gonna be more available to help yous guys when you need me (for # comment in and ask for it)
5) I over think stuff, thats gotta ease down. My attempting on philosiphizing (like my spelling?) everything in my life has become a failure and a pointless act-- doneski
Love
---R---
As we continue our journey in 2005 there is much you may or may not know. The year was full of us growing in some ways and de-evolving in other ways.You were all in one way or another there to help or inhibit these processes. My resolutions are not few and are mosstly not vague.Take your time reading this, you may learn something new bout me and maybe even yourself.
I sit here at 1:05 in the morning on January 1st 2005 and I am thinking back upon this year. We grew on so many levels its amazing. Lisa, I think you went on a rollercoaster ride this year in your emotional and mental health, you have earned a place in my heart for keeping spirits high even when we were annoyed with you. Kim, we've grown close recently and I can't imagine my life with out you squished somewhere in it(and it is mutual but I have to talk to you) you're a ray of sunshine. Keri, you have grown to have a lot of my respect and trust (which is hard to earn) even if I had let you down. Chris, my darling boy, you have grown into a beautiful young man and easily became a part of my life and quickly grown to mean a lot to me. Johnny, you are , well, you. Youre a constant in my life that is a good thing to have. Tim...you know what you are to me and what I think of you, I dont need to repeat it. Ian, you too are a constant in my life, that is sometimes faded but always manages to shine thru in one way or another.Ryan, you are...something. Alisha (Cooper)we gotta get together more often, but what I do know of you is that you're intentions are usually good even if the results aren't what you expected. Laura, you're, perverted, so we work well together;) . Alicia (Rueter) you have welcomed me into your life when I needed it and made me so comfortable, same goes for Kevin who I doubt has a livejournal, thank you. Freddy, what can I say? Dont eat Pork!!! :) I might be able to back it up this time. Dan you are awesome and I can only hope to get to know yo better. Krista, I'm sorry I had to cancel our plans :( you rock!!!!. Graham, you'll be alright. Brian, you'll get fixed don't worry, or ya know what do worry. Joe, you'll see. if i forgot you my apologies please leave a comment and i'll post accordingly.
During the years changes there were many of you who helped me along or screwed something up but guess which ones I'm gonna tell you. Ryan, you started it (you bastard :-P) you gave me my first kiss standing in the jr. high north. I guess the whole thing was my fault, with the hugging freshman year, you held my hand so I could do it and not be frightened...actually it wasnt my fault at all, I remember when Chicken and I were w/e you and Mikey Cuddy talked to me and then at lunch you held my hand., that lasted a good two and a half months-ish.Timothy, ugh, you are such a boy (unlike orangutan :-P) you were so awesome to me, that one was Keri's fault :-) ((love you keri)) you went away for a while then when you came back I noticed things had changed then you left again then when you came back... bam. I swore I loved you, I still swear I did but everytime I see you it changes. Like more friendly love then "love" if that was love. I so just lost my calliope forthis paragraph to a need for shoe polish, hey ya ever notice Polish and polish are spelled the same?
Okay Resolution time (like I'll own up to any of them):
1) My lungs deserve better. thats the last of anything that damages them.
2) Last year (since september 6th or so) I have been so close minded to some stuff, I put myself in my own little bubble thats gonna stop
3) Ya'all know I volunteer at the nursing home and that I adore a lot of the residents, there's a woman by the name of Annie Craig that thinks I'm awesome and I must visit her more often since she turned 99 and she rocks her Gaelic accent to the max.
4) I'm gonna be more available to help yous guys when you need me (for # comment in and ask for it)
5) I over think stuff, thats gotta ease down. My attempting on philosiphizing (like my spelling?) everything in my life has become a failure and a pointless act-- doneski
Love
---R---