Starting Over
I'm deleting my journal one entry at a time, except for any fiction. I will probably come back to it - at least as a way to keep up with some friends.
I'm just so tired of having this archive of memories here. I don't know the person who wrote all of this. I have changed so much over the years and particularly over the past few months. I've become someone so radically different from the angry, depressed, anxious girl who never knew what else to do besides document everything to try to hold on to it.
I miss Vancouver so much. It really helped me grow up. I made amazing friends and I can't wait to be back there, but even after leaving, I'm still different.
I was in bed with Justin last night and told him "I can't imagine anything feeling better than this." It's true - for the first time in my life I'm happy.
Not the kind of happy that lasts for a day or a week, but that contentedness that things have lined up, and you'll get past the parts that aren't working out.
I don't want to hang on to this anymore. Sometimes I feel like my real life began in 2011.
I'm ready to leave a legacy behind that shows how grateful I am for everything I have.
I'm just so tired of having this archive of memories here. I don't know the person who wrote all of this. I have changed so much over the years and particularly over the past few months. I've become someone so radically different from the angry, depressed, anxious girl who never knew what else to do besides document everything to try to hold on to it.
I miss Vancouver so much. It really helped me grow up. I made amazing friends and I can't wait to be back there, but even after leaving, I'm still different.
I was in bed with Justin last night and told him "I can't imagine anything feeling better than this." It's true - for the first time in my life I'm happy.
Not the kind of happy that lasts for a day or a week, but that contentedness that things have lined up, and you'll get past the parts that aren't working out.
I don't want to hang on to this anymore. Sometimes I feel like my real life began in 2011.
I'm ready to leave a legacy behind that shows how grateful I am for everything I have.