Cambodian fruitcake
i am going to try and play a game and clean and try to finish my wicked drawing and do crafty things now because i need to be distracted so bad- today was wierd i worked hard with furniture throwing(i mean moving mommy) and cleaning at 7 in the morning- i dont like to vaccume when the conditions are perfect man, fuck 3 hours of sleep and 90 things to do in an hour- so my back is so fucked up i actually had to stop once in voice to like shake out- seeing as my shoulders were up to my ears- so this was my second class and i was kinda crappy tonight but thats okay because it didnt feel crappy - and thats just- i have no words- however, tomorow evening as you know if youve been reading this is my first night back to acting- and thus is why i need all the distractions- i want to quit- or die- or both- i dont want to see anyone- not even frank or lenny- not my teacher- i suck- im like just insanely terrified and worked up- well no thats kinda what different from before im not so terrified as upset- hmmm... i dont know what this means- i just feel like if i go up there ill have a total melt down- sound good? ive taled to rachel my boss i mean teacher about blocks and stuff but i can tell you exactly what shed say if i told her all this- shed say use it- in fact she alwasy says use it- ok sometimes u cant use it if u have to be somber and u happen to be insane and u passout before you can even enter the scene- eh rach?! allright i have therapy tomorow morning too so that means i have to deal with the fact tha that bitch dr. B dumped me- should be fun - expect my butt to be raw from spankings- :( oh well things will work out and things are working out this like i said before is being an interestin week- thats right being- so tomorow after therapy ill prolly go to barnes and noble- to play and drink coffee and pick up the latest megan slankard cd- anyone who wants to hang or have me annoy other customers by screaming into my cell phone call me- 806-3265 - i think im going around oneish- i can't wait to learn how to knit! kiss kiss- Satan