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On Wednesday I sent an email t the boss about a formula being missing on an updated spreadsheet that she sent me. I know that the formula is needed to calculate a loss rate. I was unsure if she sent me the correct form and if so could I copy the formula from the last month's sheet onto this one. She went off typing in all caps about how for months she has been telling me not to look at past sheets and that I should not just do the work, that I should have more knowledge...etc. My brain says that the trainer should be giving me credit union knowledge and that if I ask a question I should not be yelled at.
I just cried at my desk. Yes, my coworkers saw. The office manager trainee came over. I said she could read the email if she wanted, but know that we are on camera so I won't look at you. I am under a ton of stress and don't need this and I can't quit because of my Dad.
After I stopped crying I called the boss and told her that I was told by her that this Sheet comes from the National Credit Union Association and I was told that it could not be changed. That is why I asked. I was clearly angry. She was clearly annoyed. I am curious what she will say on Monday. I just want to get through the reports. I still say that if she won't answer my questions then I have to look at past reports to find the correct data. She was supposed to give me a performance plan. I would like a plan, but she is not around to implement a plan. I wonder if she will fire me. If so she will have to train someone else...good luck with that. I want to learn. I want this job. I don't want to be treated like crap because she isn't training. She should have hired an experienced person.
I have one more week to work on ceramics and jewelry for my last craft show. After I will take some seminars from the National Credit Union Association. I found these on my own. There is also a linked in book keeping seminar I will take. It still won't help me with the spreadsheets as she needs to show me where the data comes from.
I need a day off. I don't care when. My brain hurts and I am angry and depressed. I just want to work in a ceramic shop =(