These things are scary, I swear.
Our Nihongo sensei is someone who senses more than a normal person could. He even tells us he's in line with witches. That he's one of them. Of course it's hard to believe.
In today's Nihongo class, we talked about ghosts, apparitions, phantoms and other magical/enchanted creatures. We were talking about ghosts and how most, if not all, of them do not have feet. Somehow the discussion turned into out-of-body experiences, astral projections or whatever it's called, I don't really know much about this topic.
Our sensei says that all of us get out of our bodies and go and travel somewhere. He recounted his own experiences of astral travel. He said the first time he got aware of it, he felt light as a cotton. He didn't feel like a whole person but he had a 360° view of everything. The next few times he said he could feel himself going out of his body but he was constantly bumping into doors and walls and couldn't get out of the room/house because his astral body was too dense and couldn't pass through walls.
This prompted me to ask about what I've been experiencing, especially during my uni years.
It's not happening recently but I have been experiencing something weird when I'm about to or during my sleep. It's really unclear because it's like you're already asleep but still awake at the same time. In my case, many time I'd feel like I'm lifted up and floating mid-air and then I'd start spinning and spinning and spinning. And I couldn't move at all.
I tried to slip into it consciously, like trying my best to remember what's happening and there was one time I'm really sure that my orientation changed (like my feet are not at my head's initial position, like I rotated). But it was scary because I couldn't move my body at all, it's just spinning and I couldn't see anything. After that I willed and hoped myself to stop slipping into that state and thankfully I haven't been experiencing that recently.
Another thing that happens to me is that I instantaneously slip into a blackout which would always leave me questions like why do I exist and how did I get here, stuff that have big question marks. I really can't remember which instances or circumstances drive me to slip into that state of consciousness(?) of creepy, total darkness. I don't like the feeling, it's like plain nothing. Even I become nothing then I'd come again to my senses with big question marks. XD
I started asking some friends before if these things happen to them, too. Most of them told me that it's just a nightmare, even if I told them I felt conscious when I experienced it. To be honest, I started believing something has gone wrong with me. It kind of stopped and I was thankful. But accounting it as a series of nightmares sort of didn't answer my questions.
As for my sensei's answers, he said that I'm clearly doing the astral stuff. He said a lot of people also told him about the spinning phenomenon(?) and that it was one method of going out of the body. He also added that the reason why I couldn't get out of that spiral, spinning state and see things clearly is that I get scared when it happens.
Regarding my blackout episodes, he said that I am starting to reach transcendence. My knowledge to transcendence or mediation or anything related to that is zero. FOR ME THIS IS SOMETHING BIG AND INCOMPREHENSIBLE. Sensei explained that that's what people who do meditation are aiming for. He also said that it's something that's difficult that people would need a mantra or something to reach that state. He said it's a gift and I shouldn't be scared of that blackout because after that nothingness comes everything-ness, and I'm getting closer to the akashic records which I never heard of until now and that I could get knowledge from there which I could be very useful in this life.
That was honestly overwhelming I thought I should've just stopped wondering when my friends dismissed the episodes as nightmares. I don't know if any of these happens/happened to you, too, but both are really scary. Our sensei is encouraging me though to develop them. Some people, he said (though he admitted that he also took it with a pinch of salt), are able to reach as far as other galaxies. He said these will be advantageous, even fun. But I don't know. Though I like the idea, I'm still scared of the fact that I might not be able to go back. And thanks to the movies Insidious 1 and 2, this fear is amplified. XDDDD
In today's Nihongo class, we talked about ghosts, apparitions, phantoms and other magical/enchanted creatures. We were talking about ghosts and how most, if not all, of them do not have feet. Somehow the discussion turned into out-of-body experiences, astral projections or whatever it's called, I don't really know much about this topic.
Our sensei says that all of us get out of our bodies and go and travel somewhere. He recounted his own experiences of astral travel. He said the first time he got aware of it, he felt light as a cotton. He didn't feel like a whole person but he had a 360° view of everything. The next few times he said he could feel himself going out of his body but he was constantly bumping into doors and walls and couldn't get out of the room/house because his astral body was too dense and couldn't pass through walls.
This prompted me to ask about what I've been experiencing, especially during my uni years.
It's not happening recently but I have been experiencing something weird when I'm about to or during my sleep. It's really unclear because it's like you're already asleep but still awake at the same time. In my case, many time I'd feel like I'm lifted up and floating mid-air and then I'd start spinning and spinning and spinning. And I couldn't move at all.
I tried to slip into it consciously, like trying my best to remember what's happening and there was one time I'm really sure that my orientation changed (like my feet are not at my head's initial position, like I rotated). But it was scary because I couldn't move my body at all, it's just spinning and I couldn't see anything. After that I willed and hoped myself to stop slipping into that state and thankfully I haven't been experiencing that recently.
Another thing that happens to me is that I instantaneously slip into a blackout which would always leave me questions like why do I exist and how did I get here, stuff that have big question marks. I really can't remember which instances or circumstances drive me to slip into that state of consciousness(?) of creepy, total darkness. I don't like the feeling, it's like plain nothing. Even I become nothing then I'd come again to my senses with big question marks. XD
I started asking some friends before if these things happen to them, too. Most of them told me that it's just a nightmare, even if I told them I felt conscious when I experienced it. To be honest, I started believing something has gone wrong with me. It kind of stopped and I was thankful. But accounting it as a series of nightmares sort of didn't answer my questions.
As for my sensei's answers, he said that I'm clearly doing the astral stuff. He said a lot of people also told him about the spinning phenomenon(?) and that it was one method of going out of the body. He also added that the reason why I couldn't get out of that spiral, spinning state and see things clearly is that I get scared when it happens.
Regarding my blackout episodes, he said that I am starting to reach transcendence. My knowledge to transcendence or mediation or anything related to that is zero. FOR ME THIS IS SOMETHING BIG AND INCOMPREHENSIBLE. Sensei explained that that's what people who do meditation are aiming for. He also said that it's something that's difficult that people would need a mantra or something to reach that state. He said it's a gift and I shouldn't be scared of that blackout because after that nothingness comes everything-ness, and I'm getting closer to the akashic records which I never heard of until now and that I could get knowledge from there which I could be very useful in this life.
That was honestly overwhelming I thought I should've just stopped wondering when my friends dismissed the episodes as nightmares. I don't know if any of these happens/happened to you, too, but both are really scary. Our sensei is encouraging me though to develop them. Some people, he said (though he admitted that he also took it with a pinch of salt), are able to reach as far as other galaxies. He said these will be advantageous, even fun. But I don't know. Though I like the idea, I'm still scared of the fact that I might not be able to go back. And thanks to the movies Insidious 1 and 2, this fear is amplified. XDDDD