Still Depressed.
Today i was told by my doctor, there is a high possibility that there wont be a drug on the market that will stop me crying every 2nd day(or in her words, stop the crying in general) without doing serious damage to my brain or body.
As i was on the highest (safe) dosage of a tranquilliser and it had no effect on the depression/anxiety it just made me talk slurred and made me misspell the written word and get huge sections of grammar wrong which they now have to wean me off.
Shes hopeful that we will find one that knocks the edge of longer than 2 weeks. But she isnt sure of what to do next.
I cried all the way home i feel utterly defeated. It has won. I dont know where im supposed to go from here.