On Letting it Out
Is it better to tell someone how you feel, just to get it over with, out of the way, off your chest, even when you're fairly certain the other person doesn't reciprocate your feelings?
Typically I don't do this. Instead I sit around waiting, hoping that they eventually feel the same as I. I have said something a few times, mostly with disastrous results. But in those instances I built my hope up so much and I had so far to fall.
Today I let it out. Without much hope. Almost as an after thought...which is what it was really. I hadn't planned to say it, but the opportunity presented itself and I knew that I couldn't survive many more months of wondering and not knowing. And like I thought, the feelings aren't there. But now I can move on, knowing that I tried and didn't get my hopes dashed too much. Hopefully the friendship is still there. Because I like that, the friendship. Losing that may be worse than losing the potential.
Typically I don't do this. Instead I sit around waiting, hoping that they eventually feel the same as I. I have said something a few times, mostly with disastrous results. But in those instances I built my hope up so much and I had so far to fall.
Today I let it out. Without much hope. Almost as an after thought...which is what it was really. I hadn't planned to say it, but the opportunity presented itself and I knew that I couldn't survive many more months of wondering and not knowing. And like I thought, the feelings aren't there. But now I can move on, knowing that I tried and didn't get my hopes dashed too much. Hopefully the friendship is still there. Because I like that, the friendship. Losing that may be worse than losing the potential.