Every Step I Take, Every Move I Make, I'm Missing You
I automatically look for your car when I pull into my driveway. The funny thing is, you rarely were there when I came home, but I look anyway. I miss talking to you while we were working. You were such a great distraction and helped the days seem shorter. Now I count down the hours till I can go home. I miss rolling over in bed during the night to give you a kiss. I miss your hand, which would seek mine out when we walked outside. I miss the silence in your car, and still remember how you said it'd be great when we had a fight in the car because the silence would be awkward. I laughed and asked if you were planning a fight. I miss calling you from my bed, already half-asleep, but needing to hear your voice before I dropped off. I miss you bugging me every week about my Thursday Thirteen. There were days when I'd throw something together just to make you happy. I miss reviewing The Daily Show with you and sending you snippets of The Colbert Report.
I wish you were here to enjoy fall. You'd complain about the cold, and I'd snuggle next to you beneath the covers. We'd drive through the parks, look at the fall colors, and enjoy the beauty. The first week was so hard because I didn't have a way to contact you. These past couple days have been more tolerable because of our phone and IM conversations. But deep down, way deep down, I miss you too fucking much. I'm not sure how we'll get through one month of this, let alone 3, 6, 12 months of separation. I don't want to become the clingy girlfriend, but something tells me I'll be clingy whenever I see you. I won't be able to let go.
I wish you were here to enjoy fall. You'd complain about the cold, and I'd snuggle next to you beneath the covers. We'd drive through the parks, look at the fall colors, and enjoy the beauty. The first week was so hard because I didn't have a way to contact you. These past couple days have been more tolerable because of our phone and IM conversations. But deep down, way deep down, I miss you too fucking much. I'm not sure how we'll get through one month of this, let alone 3, 6, 12 months of separation. I don't want to become the clingy girlfriend, but something tells me I'll be clingy whenever I see you. I won't be able to let go.