Life comes at you fast
I never used to be that girl. The girl that was super-emotional. The girl that would cry at the drop of the hat. The girl who cried during movies, television shows, songs, etc. I was more likely to cry while reading a book than to cry while watching a movie. The characters in books were so real to me that I felt their pain. I didn't mind crying over books. Mainly cause I rarely did it, but more because no one cries over books. No one but me.
Lately, over the past year at least, I've started to become that girl. And I hate being that girl. I don't want to be that girl. I don't like showing vulnerability.
There's a reason I don't let people in. It's because I don't want them to get through the walls and see the real me. The emotional, vulnerable me.
I hate being that girl. I don't want to be that girl. I want to go back. Back when I could control my emotions and feelings and keep them inside. I knew how to handle that. This...I don't know how to handle this.
Lately, over the past year at least, I've started to become that girl. And I hate being that girl. I don't want to be that girl. I don't like showing vulnerability.
There's a reason I don't let people in. It's because I don't want them to get through the walls and see the real me. The emotional, vulnerable me.
I hate being that girl. I don't want to be that girl. I want to go back. Back when I could control my emotions and feelings and keep them inside. I knew how to handle that. This...I don't know how to handle this.