Meh
Tell me are you listening?
Because no one heres a thing...
Tonight I have decided that there's only one way out.
And I've tried so hard to fight it...
But the blade kept coming down.
And I gotta talk to someone,
But theres no one I can tell.
So yeah.
heres the "shortened version" of ferris livejournal.
My dad = dick
Me = still doesn't know what to do.
Life = still pissing me off.
So yeah, I was supposed to go to the mall with Britney and Felicia tonight, but of course, my dads all like "no, your grounded" because, you know, I missed my curfew by 10 minutes, cuz I walked home home on saturday night. So whatever, fuck him.
Of course, the main focus of my mind, has, once again, been the dilemma, of the chicks.
"have fun" they say. I'd love to see how they'd handle this situation. Robyn: you were in this situation, did you have fun?
Cuz, by all means, if you did, please, tell me how, I would LOVE to have fun with all this.
I really dont think they understand how much its gonna hurt ME to pick only one.
They all say, "oh, well, I'll be fine if I dont get picked" but I think thats bull. They all wanna get picked, and they all know it.
And, in regards to my last entry, no, I was NOT going to kill myself, It was an expression. As in, this really, really sucks.
So yeah, Believe me, it IS nice having the 3 girls like me, and I do have fun with all 3 of em, its just hard knowing that, I may royally fuck up two friendships. "no, that wont happen, I promise" but, oh, it does, and it PROBABLY will.
So yeah, life, is just life.
Life just tries to screw me over. I swear.
I dont feel like talking about that.
As long as there is blood inside my veins...
I will sing this out
'Till the sun beats down
And we rise to meet the sky...
On that day, I swear
I will see you there
I will heal these wounded eyes...
<3
~Ferris