a fleeting moment of reality has just walked up to me and bit me on the ass... it's funny- i was just watching LOTR- Two Towers (x-tended version) where Aragorn (heh and my family name is Aragon...parallel??? whatever shut-up) where he tells Eowyn how old he reaaallly is (87 mind you)... and she looks at him like holy-shit!!
i'm not ready to face my years... my real age of... ::gasp, choke, hack... cough:: 27 soon to be a year older in March... i'm not ready i'm not ready- i didn't even do the last 15 years right!!! aaaaargh... everyone i know who i call a friend is YOUNGER than i am. i was recently told by someone (who has really no right to talk).... that i should learn to act my age- so my question is to all you wiser ones... HOW OLD SHOLD A 27 year-old act!?!?!? i just realized how young some of my realllllly close friends are- not young in age- but young at heart- young at number- just young. mind you i am not saying that i am a senior citizen- but my thing is aren't there just some things that are expected of someone my age by now- as opposed to when i was 21-22 years old??
i look at where i am now- and i freak out. no degree (TRYING OH SO HARD TO GET ONE)... no job (HONESTLY- i CAN'T concentrate on more than one thing at a time)... no place of my own because i have no job... no money to get a place because i have no job and spend everything basically for school and my obsession with DVD's (dammit i BARELY GO OUT- i might as well have something to watch)...
so i think to myself- what a piece of work i am- i suck. i suck major bung-hole. I MUST!!! i'm a mess.. both emotionally and socially and everything-ally. i don't know. i'm at odds with myself and time. time is going by so fast and just when i think i have things right- or somewhat together- time throws me another loop and BAM... i have to cope with a new age. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH....
I DON'T WANNA GROW UP... I'M A TOYS 'R' US KID!!!
where the hell is mighty mouse when i need him?!?!?! who will come to save the day???? aaaaaargh.
::pouting:: someone hug me.