then i start to scream.... arrrgh
it's been a while since i've posted here... been busy what with classes starting up again. basically its my last year in college (you'd think... but no i'm going for my master's degree in Graphic Design next and a small major in photo... very small... tiny in fact)... ummm... school's been good. i've missed two classes though- great way to start the quarter::slaps wrists:: bad split P!! bad!! i hate missing classes but- they've left early and i got to class late- when i get there- the whole world has disappeared... oy.
uhhh... what else... hrmmm... i dunno... what's that down there??
i layed in bed last night- feeling ::sigh:: emptier than ever... but that happens from time to time does it not?
i don't know. it just especially felt... empty last night. so down. so hutrful. i've been debating what's going on inside of me. i've been wondering.... why and what... who and where.... questions that only i hold the answer to... well... maybe... but i won't reveal the solutions to myself...
how selfish is that?!?! i think i'm not going to talk to me anymore... ::stands in front of mirror:: not coll miss missy miss!! not cool at all... nu uh.
right now? yeah... empty still. empty and lonely as hell.
pssssstt... i heard it said- you have to grow numb when you love someone so much- else if you knew how much you really loved them- it just might kill you.
i think i've just died and gone to hell. again. for the 400th time.
uhhh... what else... hrmmm... i dunno... what's that down there??
i layed in bed last night- feeling ::sigh:: emptier than ever... but that happens from time to time does it not?
i don't know. it just especially felt... empty last night. so down. so hutrful. i've been debating what's going on inside of me. i've been wondering.... why and what... who and where.... questions that only i hold the answer to... well... maybe... but i won't reveal the solutions to myself...
how selfish is that?!?! i think i'm not going to talk to me anymore... ::stands in front of mirror:: not coll miss missy miss!! not cool at all... nu uh.
right now? yeah... empty still. empty and lonely as hell.
pssssstt... i heard it said- you have to grow numb when you love someone so much- else if you knew how much you really loved them- it just might kill you.
i think i've just died and gone to hell. again. for the 400th time.