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I've only got fifteen minutes, but there are a few things that i need to get out of my head that are blocking the flow of my essay....
There are a few things that i wish i had said to people, if i'd had the chance, or perhaps i had the chance and decided not to say what i really thought.....
What i said: "Yeah well things change, stepping forward is the key"
What i wanted to say: "Get over yourself, you're not as perfect and as wonderful as you always try to make out."
What i said: "I'm sorry i was moody, just stressed over exams"
What i wanted to say: "You know what, you are evil, i've always known it and i think you should know that i now know too."
What i said: "I dnt know what you're on about"
What i wanted to say: "I know you never liked me, but i swear yell at me like that again and i wont restrain myself from punching you in the face"
What i said: "Hi, not seen you for ages, how are you?"
What i wanted to say: "You think you're clever, you think that i dont know what goes on behind my back? You think that by smiling i wont remember what you said?"
What i said: "believe what you want"
what i wanted to say: "Ok, so you think that i am making it up? That the guy wasnt making every attempt to stand near me and talk to me? That he HASNT been texting me and telling me that he wants to be with me, when he's with her? That he hasnt been texting other girls saying the same? Of course he hasnt....I must be dreaming. Wanna read my phone?"
What i said: "Nice to see you again, how's uni?"
what i wanted to say: "Fat-ugly-Lesbian"
What i said: "Yeah some people are just lucky i guess"
What i wanted to say: "You're mad at me for doing well? I worked so hard, working and studying, all you had to do was go to your fancy pants school and study without worry, I had to work hard instead of revising trying to help someone completely suicidal cos i wanted my family to stay together and not fall apart. I passed cos i stayed awake all night revising when i could, dont you dare tell me that i passed by chance. I damn well earnt it."
What i said: "No im not dating Travis, we're friends."
What i wanted to say: "Why is it any of your damn business? You gave up any right to be my best friend when you sat and said all those things about me, when i was sat four people away. You're shallow and only think of yourself, when you're gaining you tread on all the people who were there for you during the bad times. When i needed you, you were "unavailable" and made me feel like the bad guy. When a friend takes the side of the ex intead of her so called best mate then there is no longer a friendship. You alienated all your other friends, and now i see why, i was the only one who stuck by you cos you were MY friend, all you wanted was someone, anyone and now you have him for that."
That feels SO much better, great thing is most people wont know who i am refering to, only the people who know me honestly are the ones who will.
now to get on with my esssay. xxx
There are a few things that i wish i had said to people, if i'd had the chance, or perhaps i had the chance and decided not to say what i really thought.....
What i said: "Yeah well things change, stepping forward is the key"
What i wanted to say: "Get over yourself, you're not as perfect and as wonderful as you always try to make out."
What i said: "I'm sorry i was moody, just stressed over exams"
What i wanted to say: "You know what, you are evil, i've always known it and i think you should know that i now know too."
What i said: "I dnt know what you're on about"
What i wanted to say: "I know you never liked me, but i swear yell at me like that again and i wont restrain myself from punching you in the face"
What i said: "Hi, not seen you for ages, how are you?"
What i wanted to say: "You think you're clever, you think that i dont know what goes on behind my back? You think that by smiling i wont remember what you said?"
What i said: "believe what you want"
what i wanted to say: "Ok, so you think that i am making it up? That the guy wasnt making every attempt to stand near me and talk to me? That he HASNT been texting me and telling me that he wants to be with me, when he's with her? That he hasnt been texting other girls saying the same? Of course he hasnt....I must be dreaming. Wanna read my phone?"
What i said: "Nice to see you again, how's uni?"
what i wanted to say: "Fat-ugly-Lesbian"
What i said: "Yeah some people are just lucky i guess"
What i wanted to say: "You're mad at me for doing well? I worked so hard, working and studying, all you had to do was go to your fancy pants school and study without worry, I had to work hard instead of revising trying to help someone completely suicidal cos i wanted my family to stay together and not fall apart. I passed cos i stayed awake all night revising when i could, dont you dare tell me that i passed by chance. I damn well earnt it."
What i said: "No im not dating Travis, we're friends."
What i wanted to say: "Why is it any of your damn business? You gave up any right to be my best friend when you sat and said all those things about me, when i was sat four people away. You're shallow and only think of yourself, when you're gaining you tread on all the people who were there for you during the bad times. When i needed you, you were "unavailable" and made me feel like the bad guy. When a friend takes the side of the ex intead of her so called best mate then there is no longer a friendship. You alienated all your other friends, and now i see why, i was the only one who stuck by you cos you were MY friend, all you wanted was someone, anyone and now you have him for that."
That feels SO much better, great thing is most people wont know who i am refering to, only the people who know me honestly are the ones who will.
now to get on with my esssay. xxx