damn.

[raven_d]

the other day...well not the other day but yall know what I mean....Something happened that I I didnt think ever would again....Nettie talked to me...An I dont know how to describe it.It was like an emotional rush.....I havnt felt that way in a long time....it was sadness relief and happiness all at once.....I wanted to cry...I wanted to tell her how I felt an how glad I am to hear from her and and I still care an all of these things...But maybe thats me just being incredibly stupid incredibly stupid....Im not an emotional person like that anymore......but with her it all comes back, just from talking to her....*sigh* It worries me but at the same time it feels good......I really want to cry...but thats not something I do anymore.

Damn I kinda feel like someones trying to jumpstart my emotions and heart.But Im this way for a reason....I rather be a heartbreaker than the broken hearted.