Bad coulpe of days
Its been a while since Ive updated but what no better way then a bad update. Yesterday I was given my notice at work that I will be fired at the end of the month. At first it didnt bother me because I was leaving anyways. But after sleeping on it and a few other issues I have, I had an anxiety attack at work and had to sit out for about 30 minutes.
My first plan was to look for work over my holidays and if i didnt find any then I would just go back to flooring. But now I dont have a choice in the matter and I need a job or Im unemployed again.
There is no way to describe the way Im feeling about all this. And I can only imagine how Colleen feels and how she see`s me, I mean when we get married, there comes a whole list of responsibilities that I have to live up to and so far Im not showing any signs that I can do it. Dont get me wrong I love Colleen to death and "I do" want to spend the rest of my life with here. I dont know what would happen if I was to lose her. And I hope to go I never do.
I just wish that someone would open a door for me and that it stays open forever. Im tired of hitting the ground. There has to be light at the end of the tunnel.
I love you so much Colleen.
My first plan was to look for work over my holidays and if i didnt find any then I would just go back to flooring. But now I dont have a choice in the matter and I need a job or Im unemployed again.
There is no way to describe the way Im feeling about all this. And I can only imagine how Colleen feels and how she see`s me, I mean when we get married, there comes a whole list of responsibilities that I have to live up to and so far Im not showing any signs that I can do it. Dont get me wrong I love Colleen to death and "I do" want to spend the rest of my life with here. I dont know what would happen if I was to lose her. And I hope to go I never do.
I just wish that someone would open a door for me and that it stays open forever. Im tired of hitting the ground. There has to be light at the end of the tunnel.
I love you so much Colleen.