Don't cry because it is over, Smile because it happend
I am So ok with ever thing and every one right now, that i feel kind of worried. Worried some thing bad will happen, is my life so bad that i feel i have to worried when every thing seems to be ok. Do i really have nothing left to feel right now, so much of nothing that it worries me, why can't i just be ok, just relax and drift off. but i can't instead of being ok I am sitting here worrying something horrible will happen to me. . . . Or maybe i am so overwhelmed I feel a blankness just so I don't do something dumb. Maybe I feel so much anger, hate, want, need, love, hope that I am stunned into thinking I am Ok, so stunned that I make my self feel nothing at all just to get through one more day. One more day doing thing that wont make you mad at me, One more day to Tring to help you when all i really want to just say "deal with it, it is part of living". One more day to walk by and see him with her and not with me. One more bad day, to add to the plethora of bad days I already hade. So that next time I feel ok I will be worried. worried that I will have to go through another bad day, Just to see you having a wonderful day.