Fuck, at least someone knows how I feel. We planned out our whole entire fucking lifes and he told me no matter how much I fucked up, or how much he fucked up, we'd always be together and we'd always find a way to work things out. Shit happens though I guess. He's already got a new g/f and I aksed him how the fuck can he move on so fast, cause it took him a year before he went out with me after him and his ex broke up. what the fuck does that show, I didn't mean shit to him, and we were together for a year and 3 months or something like that. that just fucking kills me. I STILL tell myself that we're going to end up in eachothers arms, and I tell him that every day, I call him everyday and tell him I love him and that we're going to get married and they're going to play "You're still the one" at our weeding cause it's the fucking truth, and I tell him I don't give a fuck if he has a gf, she can suck my dick, he belongs to me and only me. yeah he hates me, but I don't care, he's going to realize how I was right at one point, I hope. Guys are fucking idiots. I just can't wait until I find out who his g/f is, well I know her name, I just don't know shit about her, but ocne I find out, I'm going to punk the shit out of her and make it so she don't want to even be friends with him. I'm way bigger than her stupid asss anyways. hahaha I'm so mean
Yeah, I can't believe he already has a girlfriend but it could be either one of these things 1) He never cared 2) He's trying to move on so that it doesn't hurt as much. Think about that 1 because I think its number 2. Guys suck at handling emotional stuff I mean hes not gonna sit there and cry because thats not whats guys do, instead he's going to move on TRY and get over you... you guys sound a lot like me and Justin, we planned on playing "I want you now" by Brian McKnight at our reception and it being the song we first danced to as husband and wife. I mean its kills me listen to that but I do because it makes me think to myself that I have loved and I did love him. I wish I didn't fuck up so much but what can you do ya know. It'll work out beautiful for the both of us Raven, our guys are out there we just gotta keep tellin ourselves that.
I don't think he's doing it to get over me, I really think he cares about this bitch, because I asked him why he's with her and not me, and he said "She treats me how I should be" Well what the fuck I did too I just made a few fucking mistakes. I fucking bought him everything and anything he wanted, when he needed a ride somewhere I was there, when he needed money, I gave it to him, I was always putting him in front of me. AND THIS GIRL IS FUCKING UGLY ;x. Maybe he might be trying to get over me though, BUT I DON'T THINK GETTING A NEW GF WILL HELP, I HONESTLY THINK IT WILL HURT MORE IN THE LONG RUN. but I don't know. I know I was his first, and he was the first guy I ever loved, and he lost his virginity to me, so that means something, so that will always be there, hopefully he thinks twice about what hes doing before he makes a HUGE step. I don't know I just want him back. Yeah, I listen to "our" song all the time, and just make myself cry, I'm fuckin pathetic now. it's disgusting.
I'm sorry about you and Justin, and yea, our guys are out there somewhere, we just gotta look harder!
Yeah I mean maybe hes taking it for granted.. you just gotta look at the situation. If you gave him all that stuff than maybes hes thinking that if this other girl doesn't last he can go back to you, If thats the case then girl you need to get out of that, you need to let him know that it ain't workin that way. I mean some guys work like that, thats why I try not to buy my bfs stuff A LOT ya know every now and then I would but the random gifts weren't excessive because depending on the guy your innocent gifts may be taken for granted. Sad but true. I think in your situation you need to find out his way of thinking right now.. in the end he may end up hurting you more than you already hurt.
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I'm sorry about you and Justin, and yea, our guys are out there somewhere, we just gotta look harder!
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