A new beginning....
I have gone back and forth on whether I want to post in here. I think now that my mental state is back Its ok. I need to keep things in check. I emotionally exploded there for a while. I would never have thought it possible. I guess this has been the month of suprises. I decided to keep all the journal entries during that time private. I just don't like that person I became. He was too unstable. Not that I am completely in check or have quelled all my feelings. I just think that I have things in control.... except while drunk. Which comes to my next statement.
I need to start living more positively. First thing on that road is to get my drinking in check. While I don't think it has yet become a major problem. If I continue down this road it will. I have already hit some speedbumps as a result of it. I am not saying I am going to stop because its unrealistic. Just moderate myself a little more and stop drinking around her. As much as I love making an ass of myself..... I don't think its for the best.
I need to start living more positively. First thing on that road is to get my drinking in check. While I don't think it has yet become a major problem. If I continue down this road it will. I have already hit some speedbumps as a result of it. I am not saying I am going to stop because its unrealistic. Just moderate myself a little more and stop drinking around her. As much as I love making an ass of myself..... I don't think its for the best.