priority thought jumble
I tend to plan my life around others... not so much as what type of person i want to be and moral choices but more like my plans/vacations/work schedule and such. this isn't a problem.... I get that I am a very flexible person and that my priorities are my friends and those that are close to me and I don't mind dropping things to make things work or flying to them for a weekend because their plans fell apart due to someone elses "control"... I understand that a big reason things are this way is because i am willing to change it up on my end to accomodate my friends' lives. If i ceased to do this would these people meet me halfway?.... some maybe but i don't ask them to because it's not hard for me to choose my friendships over whatever keeps them from doing the same. This goes beyond friends though.... I often find myself waiting to hear back from others when i'm trying to make plans.... at the moment my mom for a trip we want to do to florida at the end of july and for my dad with a trip to reno for my cousin's graduation in a week and a half. I can't solidify my plans because of this. I get that they have more responsibility and yadda yadda but it just makes me realize that to differentiate between all this, my future lover would have to be somewhere along the lines as i am with plans and priorities. That's probably why Joe and I didn't fly... He didn't seem to be this way....Don't put yourself in a position that compromises what matters most to you.... and if you haven't then don't lie about the decision you have made.
this might sound like an angry post.... and that would be a mistake!
