Apocalypse

[raul_isthe_best]

I hate life. I fuckin hate life. All i want to do is cut myself. It gives me a quick adrenaline rush to my head. I;m not trying to hurt myself, its just that the people around me are hurting me. And they are too blind to see it. Today is the 5th month that my brother died who took Ex. And my best friend in the whole world, couldnt even pay me a visit cuz he had work or didnt want to take off work. W/e screw everyone. I'm so close to dropping out of college. I just want a life of my own. I dont care about leading a rich life or poor life. I just want myself to myself. I'm okay with the way i am. People just need to know how to accept that. Whenever i go around town and people see me with Alex or Robby, they look at me cuz i stand out...cuz im white. lol. Ok this entry isnt making sense. I get off topic too much.

I dont know anything anymore. Maybe i should just join my brother wherever he is.

Very confused, call me!!!!!
Raul