I Just Mentally Regurgitated and Watched What Came Out.
In an odd turn of events, qmp has decided that we should start a side-project where I'd do the vocals. Even more eerie is the fact that one of my workmates, who's a veritable musical genius, has been considering taking me up as the vocalist for his latests project. I predict that in a couple of year's time Patrik Renholm will be a household name within the alternative music scene!
Creepy.
Also, Suruaika played their final gig in Helsinki and it was 100% pure diluted awesome. This had nothing to do with the fact that I was quite, er, drunk at the time. I'm sure I would've enjoyed it even without the liberal consumption of alcohol. Also picked up their farewell EP, which is a very enjoyable little package.
As far as my emotional life goes, I'm getting better. Not once did I feel like breaking apart today. I've come to the conclusion that I have a very simple problem: I create emotional ties too quickly and once I do I have a hard time severing them. As evidence of this I have a number of ex-girlfriends and crushes I still haven't really got over. As another downside to being overtly emotional, I occasionally scare the people I'm interested in off. This leads us to another problem: I always fall for the melancholy types. Not only that, but I also attract them. One of my friends theorized that it's due to the fact that I'm easy to talk to, caring and emotional. Because of this, the melancholy types will become attracted to me because they'll feel that I can really listen and relate. In my case, being so compassionate as I am (according to my friend), I may have a subconscious urge to help these people with their problems.
Only problem is, becoming too emotionally attached to people too quickly will oftentimes lead to the target of my affections being scared off by me and leaving me in a state of being completely enamored with someone while they sever ties with me for the aforementioned reason. This is not nice at all, since it leads to all sorts of messy emotions within my disturbed little head.
Of course, another theory that some of my friends support is that I'm not at fault here. The fact that some people are scared off by me being too emotional is the result of them not being able to appreciate a hot piece of ass... I mean a compassionate and understanding guy like me. This theory has its upsides, as it completely relieves me of any responsibility. It's not my fault that I keep scaring off girls, it's their fault for not seeing what an awesome guy I am!
But then again, if it's the girls that are at fault, why do I keep being attracted to the wrong ones?
That turned out to be a lot wordier and more thoughtful than I imagined myself being capable of. Wow.
Creepy.
Also, Suruaika played their final gig in Helsinki and it was 100% pure diluted awesome. This had nothing to do with the fact that I was quite, er, drunk at the time. I'm sure I would've enjoyed it even without the liberal consumption of alcohol. Also picked up their farewell EP, which is a very enjoyable little package.
As far as my emotional life goes, I'm getting better. Not once did I feel like breaking apart today. I've come to the conclusion that I have a very simple problem: I create emotional ties too quickly and once I do I have a hard time severing them. As evidence of this I have a number of ex-girlfriends and crushes I still haven't really got over. As another downside to being overtly emotional, I occasionally scare the people I'm interested in off. This leads us to another problem: I always fall for the melancholy types. Not only that, but I also attract them. One of my friends theorized that it's due to the fact that I'm easy to talk to, caring and emotional. Because of this, the melancholy types will become attracted to me because they'll feel that I can really listen and relate. In my case, being so compassionate as I am (according to my friend), I may have a subconscious urge to help these people with their problems.
Only problem is, becoming too emotionally attached to people too quickly will oftentimes lead to the target of my affections being scared off by me and leaving me in a state of being completely enamored with someone while they sever ties with me for the aforementioned reason. This is not nice at all, since it leads to all sorts of messy emotions within my disturbed little head.
Of course, another theory that some of my friends support is that I'm not at fault here. The fact that some people are scared off by me being too emotional is the result of them not being able to appreciate a hot piece of ass... I mean a compassionate and understanding guy like me. This theory has its upsides, as it completely relieves me of any responsibility. It's not my fault that I keep scaring off girls, it's their fault for not seeing what an awesome guy I am!
But then again, if it's the girls that are at fault, why do I keep being attracted to the wrong ones?
That turned out to be a lot wordier and more thoughtful than I imagined myself being capable of. Wow.