Oh the ups and downs.
My best friend broke up with his girlfriend of four years and I haven't even talked to him about it. That's one of those things you do and then realize you're kind of not holding up your end of the bargain (and are an asshole).
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...what a weird week. On second thought: what a weird month. Starting with my birthday, I've just been on an elevator of emotions: happiest I've been in a while, frustrated as hell, confused out of my mind, Claritin D-pressed, and guilt-ridden (but only about not seeing anyone). All of this may explain my constant exhaustion while none of this explains how whiny I feel like this post sounds.
Anyways, the moral of this post is that I hate when people play manipulative games, it's really starting to blow me away that no one is straight-up anymore. I am becoming one of the most distrustful people in the world because I have no clue whether someone is being genuine or just pretending or making shit up or being exclusive or being manipulative or being honest and it's driving me nuts. I hate distrust, but I really fucking hate dishonesty, and probably more than anything I hate not knowing which is reality.**
**That last paragraph does NOT concern Anna or Drew or any squabbles that may be going on there.
I hate to complain so much, but I would almost prefer a crash-and-burn to a total uncertainty.
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...what a weird week. On second thought: what a weird month. Starting with my birthday, I've just been on an elevator of emotions: happiest I've been in a while, frustrated as hell, confused out of my mind, Claritin D-pressed, and guilt-ridden (but only about not seeing anyone). All of this may explain my constant exhaustion while none of this explains how whiny I feel like this post sounds.
Anyways, the moral of this post is that I hate when people play manipulative games, it's really starting to blow me away that no one is straight-up anymore. I am becoming one of the most distrustful people in the world because I have no clue whether someone is being genuine or just pretending or making shit up or being exclusive or being manipulative or being honest and it's driving me nuts. I hate distrust, but I really fucking hate dishonesty, and probably more than anything I hate not knowing which is reality.**
**That last paragraph does NOT concern Anna or Drew or any squabbles that may be going on there.
I hate to complain so much, but I would almost prefer a crash-and-burn to a total uncertainty.