What the f?
So... I'm sick again. This really really pisses me off because I have been sick on and off since I arrived in India. It started as travelers "loose motions" which I less than promptly treated with antibiotics. When I was in Bangalore, I alternated between feeling like I was getting a cold and having semi-solid BMs.
This stopped the first two weeks in Dehra Dun, then began again. The week before last I was super careful with my stomach, and I ate lots of fresh fruits because I was feeling a bit "stopped up." Then at the end of the week I had another bout of "loose motions," which I took care of by eating bland food and which inspired me to stop brushing my teeth with the tap water. Then a few days later my throat started getting sore, which I ignored... thinking it would go away or that it was the air conditioning in my super plush hotel room (meaning it had hot water and a window). I was still sort of careful with my stomach, but I slowly added normal foods back in. Yesterday the poop seemed better, but my throat became super sensitive. Today I have both problems, simultaneously. What the fuck? I know that my stomach can be sensitive at times... but common... give me an fing break.
I have considered that this might all be psychsomatic, but... it must be on a subconscious level because I have been willing myself to be healthy in my conscious mind. Well, maybe that is just the problem. I have been consciously thinking in terms of NOT being SICK, instead of being well. Either way it is a big India sized cow turd, maybe even the ever visible cow diarrhea.
I feel ashamed. My immune system should be better than this, but alas it isn't. I was always super hardy as a kid. I never got sick, or at least very rarely. It seems that catering to my poor tummy has just made it lazy and now... I am paying the price.
This puts me in an interesting position, because on one level my inclination is to fast and eat really clean food when I get home... but what if that really just makes me unfit to live in the current world? What if it makes me a weakling. I know Blair claims never to get sick because of his diet, and I know that many more serious illnesses than diarrhea and a cold can come from a poor diet... but shit man... I just want to be healthy.
According to Ayurveda, both the solution to both my current health problems is to ingest more ginger and nutmeg... which is great... but I just don't know what that means. According to ayurveda there are hot and cold foods. So, the fact that both ginger and nutmeg (hot foods) are recommended implies that I am getting too cold. I just don't know. I have been eating so.. much spicy food... how can I be cold? Fuck, fuck, fuck. I hate it all. I want to go back to the days when eating was something I did for pleasure not for health. This all started because I wanted to naturally cure my acne and you know what? My acne is worse than ever. It has become cystic again. Nothing fixes it and I don't want to use retin-A.
Any advice? Thoughts? Help... how am I going to go into the health profession if the things I was doing that made me feel better make me more susceptible to exposure to new bugs?
PS I just finished reading Running with Scissors. It was awesome.
This stopped the first two weeks in Dehra Dun, then began again. The week before last I was super careful with my stomach, and I ate lots of fresh fruits because I was feeling a bit "stopped up." Then at the end of the week I had another bout of "loose motions," which I took care of by eating bland food and which inspired me to stop brushing my teeth with the tap water. Then a few days later my throat started getting sore, which I ignored... thinking it would go away or that it was the air conditioning in my super plush hotel room (meaning it had hot water and a window). I was still sort of careful with my stomach, but I slowly added normal foods back in. Yesterday the poop seemed better, but my throat became super sensitive. Today I have both problems, simultaneously. What the fuck? I know that my stomach can be sensitive at times... but common... give me an fing break.
I have considered that this might all be psychsomatic, but... it must be on a subconscious level because I have been willing myself to be healthy in my conscious mind. Well, maybe that is just the problem. I have been consciously thinking in terms of NOT being SICK, instead of being well. Either way it is a big India sized cow turd, maybe even the ever visible cow diarrhea.
I feel ashamed. My immune system should be better than this, but alas it isn't. I was always super hardy as a kid. I never got sick, or at least very rarely. It seems that catering to my poor tummy has just made it lazy and now... I am paying the price.
This puts me in an interesting position, because on one level my inclination is to fast and eat really clean food when I get home... but what if that really just makes me unfit to live in the current world? What if it makes me a weakling. I know Blair claims never to get sick because of his diet, and I know that many more serious illnesses than diarrhea and a cold can come from a poor diet... but shit man... I just want to be healthy.
According to Ayurveda, both the solution to both my current health problems is to ingest more ginger and nutmeg... which is great... but I just don't know what that means. According to ayurveda there are hot and cold foods. So, the fact that both ginger and nutmeg (hot foods) are recommended implies that I am getting too cold. I just don't know. I have been eating so.. much spicy food... how can I be cold? Fuck, fuck, fuck. I hate it all. I want to go back to the days when eating was something I did for pleasure not for health. This all started because I wanted to naturally cure my acne and you know what? My acne is worse than ever. It has become cystic again. Nothing fixes it and I don't want to use retin-A.
Any advice? Thoughts? Help... how am I going to go into the health profession if the things I was doing that made me feel better make me more susceptible to exposure to new bugs?
PS I just finished reading Running with Scissors. It was awesome.