amid the drama there always shines those who are my friends

[rato_do_perigo]

Mick finished taking everything that was his out of the apartment. There are blank spots and an empty bureau. I'm happy he took the presents we've bought him over the years though i'm not sure if he just put them in storage or at home. I managed to get a set of his dogtags from him. I asked. He said when I leave Moncton that I have to throw them away. I'm not.

Thank you all for your love.

Work called but I declined as i said i wasn't feeling well. It's true.

I don't think it was the early ending of the relationship that i'm upset about. It's way that i feel i've betrayed someone who loves me. This seems to be my M.O. when dealing with others.

I emailed G and told him. He actually emailed me back with a light admonishing for beating myself up over this. His quote, "Destiny never decieves."

It's strange to feel a sense of "alone" again. I know i'm not really. I have you freaks (xo), G and certainly my spoiled teenager to keep me company.

I am blessed and terribly lucky. And it's a good thing I'm accostumed to being single than I am being with someone.

Mick had me delete him off yahoo as he closed the names he had me under. I have no need to back to the chatrooms.

I gave back his collar. I am no longer his submissive.

I wish Mick was angry with me and not disappointed. Anger is so much easier to handle.