this is me, and this is you.

[rationalrussian]

I have never in my whole life felt so alone. most people might see me as some asshole with no sense of direction, and certainly no regards for other people's feelings.
this is not me. this is not me. this is not me.
try as I may, I will never be accepted. I am seen as one way, and that sucks.
I thought the seniors that graduated last year would be easy for me to throw away, to just toss aside like the other classes. now that its been the first day, I realize that as much as I may not have liked any of them, they were sort of the glue that held everything together.
I feel empty now. it might just be because going back to school was surreal. to be honest, even from the first day of band camp, everything was really weird.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that never in my whole life have I felt so hated by everyone at that school. which sucks. because people don't even take the time to get to know me, they just look at what they see on the outside and make a judgement.
for everything I do and say, I'm just an act. what you see at school is not the real me.
have you ever felt like you were cut off? I guess I just feel abandoned.
it just doesn't seem right. I hope things change soon, because if not, then I don't know what I'm going to do.