Sleepy and hungry
That's right, I'm sleepy and hungry. This seems to be a near constant state for me. If I weren't so bored i wouldn't eat so much but there we go. I have nothing to do but homework and apartment hunt and it makes me want donuts like oxygen.
I've been to the gym a couple times this week- score for me, and yesterday, when I didn't go to the gym, I at least biked to school and back. I take my vitamins every day and eat a healthy breakfast. If my diet goes downhill after that, at the very least I get nutritional content and water.
Yes it's raining and miserable. No I don't know what to do about that. I go to the gym so I have a fighting chance against depression.
We're doing eulogies in my speech class. Yesterday the teacher read examples and it was a hard thing not to break down crying. I have little hope of avoiding such a horrendous display next week.
I did decide to give the eulogy on Jay- it's easier to be 100% honest about a dead person. The other choice was to give it for my father, who's 81 and not in the best of health. But I don't think I could give a fake eulogy for dad. I'm not prepared to be that upset in front of anyone unless I absolutely have to. IE at his actual death. With Jay, I'm sure I'll end up crying, but I've done it before. The pain is certainly very present, but I know it doesn't kill me.
I will also be happy to speak of him and for him in front of people, even people he never knew. He had that horrible catholic funeral where they didn't speak of him personally and it was such a joke anyway because he wasn't catholic and he killed himself so he was going to hell according to them.
I still have no serious problems with my housemate, which is nice. My biggest complaints, which aren't especially complaints, is that she wants to be making breakfast at the same time as me and her diet is ridiculous. Also the smell of fried eggs, which I hate, is hardly the first thing I want to confront in the morning. It's interesting- her diet consists of bases (eggs and cheese are some of the few substances with PHs over 7) and diet Mountain Dew to balance her out.
I have no idea how she's alive.
She's a very young 24. Despite traveling and graduating from college she seems to have zero life experience. I have no idea how to help her with that.
Life continues forward. My abs hurt.
I've been to the gym a couple times this week- score for me, and yesterday, when I didn't go to the gym, I at least biked to school and back. I take my vitamins every day and eat a healthy breakfast. If my diet goes downhill after that, at the very least I get nutritional content and water.
Yes it's raining and miserable. No I don't know what to do about that. I go to the gym so I have a fighting chance against depression.
We're doing eulogies in my speech class. Yesterday the teacher read examples and it was a hard thing not to break down crying. I have little hope of avoiding such a horrendous display next week.
I did decide to give the eulogy on Jay- it's easier to be 100% honest about a dead person. The other choice was to give it for my father, who's 81 and not in the best of health. But I don't think I could give a fake eulogy for dad. I'm not prepared to be that upset in front of anyone unless I absolutely have to. IE at his actual death. With Jay, I'm sure I'll end up crying, but I've done it before. The pain is certainly very present, but I know it doesn't kill me.
I will also be happy to speak of him and for him in front of people, even people he never knew. He had that horrible catholic funeral where they didn't speak of him personally and it was such a joke anyway because he wasn't catholic and he killed himself so he was going to hell according to them.
I still have no serious problems with my housemate, which is nice. My biggest complaints, which aren't especially complaints, is that she wants to be making breakfast at the same time as me and her diet is ridiculous. Also the smell of fried eggs, which I hate, is hardly the first thing I want to confront in the morning. It's interesting- her diet consists of bases (eggs and cheese are some of the few substances with PHs over 7) and diet Mountain Dew to balance her out.
I have no idea how she's alive.
She's a very young 24. Despite traveling and graduating from college she seems to have zero life experience. I have no idea how to help her with that.
Life continues forward. My abs hurt.