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So it's been an interesting couple of days, although not in any way that is relevant to anyone but me.
Sunday was the day of TOTAL GLEE because I got to see Ghostrider with the trainer, and eat Indian food on top of it. Ghostrider ... not making it into my top 10 films. But this might make it into a top 20 movie experiences list. He is so very funny, wearing glasses and obsessed with comic books. Of course, in a week, he's going to be right back where he was Valentine's Day - scowling/pouting/not talking/making my life just a tad bit miserable. I vastly prefer the teasing/flirting/buying me movie tickets and guarding my virtue version I'm currently working on. The one that admits he has a bubble butt and doesn't mind me looking at it.
I'm currently in this long stupid debate with myself over the direction my diet and exercise needs to take. Because it's not going the way I want it to. I'm sitting at 83 pounds down and that's not NEARLY as far along as I intended to be right now. Bad enough I'm going to have to meet with the trainer in a week and he's going to be so disappointed. I'll be like five pounds down from where I was six weeks ago, and I don't know how I'm going to explain that other than "Umm... I lost focus?". Even if hydration and muscle mass are up, it's still not anywhere near the goal. But basically I need to decide if I'm going to do this restart program that HMR does, where it's like you put yourself back in Core for 10 weeks. I think it would be helpful to me in terms of getting my drive back, but it's very expensive and time consuming. Not to mention of course, eating that food every day for ten weeks will drive you fucking batty.
I wish I had the right amount of discipline on my own, but I don't think that I do, and I really want to push hard into spring. I have to think about that Derby dress. I need to lose over a pound a week from now on if I'm actually going to lose the hundred pounds I goaled for. Hell, I expected to be damn close to done by now and I'm not, so something must be done.
Right now I'm concentrating on not drinking, and eating more, but in the six meal a day plan. Right now I'm between four and five meals a day, which isn't the goal, but I am trying. I think I was having intestinal problems because I wasn't getting enough food.
I had more to say but I've completely forgotten what it was and now I have to stop with the pretending to do something and actually do something.
Sunday was the day of TOTAL GLEE because I got to see Ghostrider with the trainer, and eat Indian food on top of it. Ghostrider ... not making it into my top 10 films. But this might make it into a top 20 movie experiences list. He is so very funny, wearing glasses and obsessed with comic books. Of course, in a week, he's going to be right back where he was Valentine's Day - scowling/pouting/not talking/making my life just a tad bit miserable. I vastly prefer the teasing/flirting/buying me movie tickets and guarding my virtue version I'm currently working on. The one that admits he has a bubble butt and doesn't mind me looking at it.
I'm currently in this long stupid debate with myself over the direction my diet and exercise needs to take. Because it's not going the way I want it to. I'm sitting at 83 pounds down and that's not NEARLY as far along as I intended to be right now. Bad enough I'm going to have to meet with the trainer in a week and he's going to be so disappointed. I'll be like five pounds down from where I was six weeks ago, and I don't know how I'm going to explain that other than "Umm... I lost focus?". Even if hydration and muscle mass are up, it's still not anywhere near the goal. But basically I need to decide if I'm going to do this restart program that HMR does, where it's like you put yourself back in Core for 10 weeks. I think it would be helpful to me in terms of getting my drive back, but it's very expensive and time consuming. Not to mention of course, eating that food every day for ten weeks will drive you fucking batty.
I wish I had the right amount of discipline on my own, but I don't think that I do, and I really want to push hard into spring. I have to think about that Derby dress. I need to lose over a pound a week from now on if I'm actually going to lose the hundred pounds I goaled for. Hell, I expected to be damn close to done by now and I'm not, so something must be done.
Right now I'm concentrating on not drinking, and eating more, but in the six meal a day plan. Right now I'm between four and five meals a day, which isn't the goal, but I am trying. I think I was having intestinal problems because I wasn't getting enough food.
I had more to say but I've completely forgotten what it was and now I have to stop with the pretending to do something and actually do something.