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i saw a light.
ive spent all tonight writing songs on my new midi keyboard,
well, its not particularly mine as it is my uncles, but im borrowing it for a while.
ive got 3 new songs.
all unfinished,
i get to a point and then i dont know where to go,
what to do.
i suppose thats like alot of things though,
i need to persist, to keep trying
my parents left for nelson bay for the weekend.
im home alone,
watching dexter aka the best show ever.
i love it.
i finished all season one of twin peaks,
now i need to watch season two.
so exciting.
i spend 5 out of 7 days at work
making sandwiches for ungrateful customers
lovers canoodle,
business men talk on their phones,
i wait patiently for them to acknowledge my existence,
just like i do with every other person.
but its ok,
im earning money, spending money
spending time and such
me and felix watched 'waking life' the other day,
while being stoned.
i was absolutely amazed.
the 'rotoscoping' (if thats what its called)
was so incredible.
i tried paining and it was terrible
see, same again, i get to a point and then i get fed up and stop.
i feel really inadequate,
i want to be special and unique,
but humans are all the same essentially
and there are so many good ones,
all the same, but so different.
and so many bad ones.
i want to be a good one,
i want to be THE good one.
doesnt everyone,
i guess this is just me being insecure as usual.
gosh, im so insecure its ridiculous.
i need someone to tell me im alright.
tell me that im more than alright.
goodnight.
xo