i wrote this yesterday, but elizabeth's computer fucked up. i guess it posted anyway. i wish it hadn't because i was in a really bad mood and i just wanted to get those feelings out, but when i reread this... well, let's just say that greater things have been written.
so...
yeah...
i don't even know what to say.
all the things i wrote were true, i just wish they hadn't come out so douchebag sounding.
i apologize for the redundance of this. i'm getting sick of it too. so now you'll say "if you are sick of it, then stop doing it". well evan, in case you haven't noticed, i've tried to.
you told me you wished you could give me up as easily as i gave you up. i didn't give you up, i just got so tired of feeling bad. and it was easier to know that i didn't have to have the chance to feel bad.
when elizabeth and i were driving to tom z's yesterday, we saw a church for sale. that strikes me as ironic. (i analyze things too much)
i wish i could just tell you everything i wanted to tell you.
i wish that i still caught you staring at me while i was driving.
i wish you still made me smile- the genuine smiles where you can see all my teeth and my eyes get really bright.
i never see you anymore.
god... i. feel. so. fucking. stupid. and. desperate.
so...
yeah...
i don't even know what to say.
all the things i wrote were true, i just wish they hadn't come out so douchebag sounding.
i apologize for the redundance of this. i'm getting sick of it too. so now you'll say "if you are sick of it, then stop doing it". well evan, in case you haven't noticed, i've tried to.
you told me you wished you could give me up as easily as i gave you up. i didn't give you up, i just got so tired of feeling bad. and it was easier to know that i didn't have to have the chance to feel bad.
when elizabeth and i were driving to tom z's yesterday, we saw a church for sale. that strikes me as ironic. (i analyze things too much)
i wish i could just tell you everything i wanted to tell you.
i wish that i still caught you staring at me while i was driving.
i wish you still made me smile- the genuine smiles where you can see all my teeth and my eyes get really bright.
i never see you anymore.
god...
i.
feel.
so.
fucking.
stupid.
and.
desperate.
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