Falling in love all over again

[rathchavady]

I had my first ob-gyn visit yesterday.  I got into the doctor's office and was so excited about seeing the baby.  Of course the first ultrasound that he did was very uncomfortable but luckily I was far along enough to where I could get a stomach ultrasound.  Eric was in the room with me and he couldn't keep his eyes off the screen where the baby was being shown.  I fell in love with this being that I haven't even met yet, it was such a wave of passion and love when I saw its head, spine, and little stomach.  We won't get to find out the sex of the baby til next monday when we get a full ultrasound :-D.

on the other side of things my finincial situation is going horribly.  I'm thinking of filing for bankruptcy but I'm so scared of what can happen in the next 7-10 years.  I mean everything is working out supposedly now but I will never know if anything can change my future!!  I just wish my financial situation would start looking up soon.  BLEH.

I still have yet to tell my parents and Eric hasn't told his either.  I don't know what we are waiting for but I think we are just afraid of their reactions.  Only a very selected few know about the creation of the little one tehehe.  But my sisters all know well almost all of them lol.  Anywho, I have so many thoughts and worries I just hope everything will work out right and fall into place.  SIGHS