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You know what... its been a FREEKEN long time, BUT at least i'm making another post.
Whats new since i last posted...
well... i'm just going to start with the main thing.
I'm in Love...
On June 11th, 2007 i started to date Nicole Simpson. I have never felt this way. she is literally the ying to my yag. She is the most amazing girl i have EVER met. She make me happier than no other. I could rant on about her for hours. she is just perfect.
I'm really stressed out lately. a little less than some i know. but i have my share...
Work has been hell... at the end of every shift i want to resign, my manager is on leave, and its is me and the assistant manager running the store. its been like this for over a month now. on top of that, my landlord and property manager are complete assholes. they are evicting us.so now i need to look for a new place and move. i dont want to move. i hate moving. also, with all the stress that i'm dealing with, i'm kinda treating nicole unfairly. tonight i got so upset because she didnt want to have sex. wich is dumb. but it seems that she never acually wants so... it always feels like she is giving in to me and just having sex with me to make me happy. and thats not what i want. i want to have sex so we can both enjoy it. it would just be nice to maybe once be getting bugged to have sex, or to maybe wake up to her kissing my neck trying to turn me on. ya know what i'm saying? its just, when i am the one always being the one wanting sex, i feel gross, i feel like i'm not wanted, and i feel very unatractive. PLUS, i'm in my sexual peak right now. and hormones are flying left and right, and i cant help but be horny alot. thats really the only reason i'm awake right now. i'm just so horny and annoyed that i cant sleep. but the kicker is, if nicole wanted to have sex now, i'd get upset, becasue i'd feel like she is doing it because i got upset about it.
its like being between a rock and a hard place. no matter what i lose.
other that that, i'm doing ok. I really want a new car, and i want to get a better job. but who duznt... right?:P
i'm goign to end this though,
Good night, and farwell.
Whats new since i last posted...
well... i'm just going to start with the main thing.
I'm in Love...
On June 11th, 2007 i started to date Nicole Simpson. I have never felt this way. she is literally the ying to my yag. She is the most amazing girl i have EVER met. She make me happier than no other. I could rant on about her for hours. she is just perfect.
I'm really stressed out lately. a little less than some i know. but i have my share...
Work has been hell... at the end of every shift i want to resign, my manager is on leave, and its is me and the assistant manager running the store. its been like this for over a month now. on top of that, my landlord and property manager are complete assholes. they are evicting us.so now i need to look for a new place and move. i dont want to move. i hate moving. also, with all the stress that i'm dealing with, i'm kinda treating nicole unfairly. tonight i got so upset because she didnt want to have sex. wich is dumb. but it seems that she never acually wants so... it always feels like she is giving in to me and just having sex with me to make me happy. and thats not what i want. i want to have sex so we can both enjoy it. it would just be nice to maybe once be getting bugged to have sex, or to maybe wake up to her kissing my neck trying to turn me on. ya know what i'm saying? its just, when i am the one always being the one wanting sex, i feel gross, i feel like i'm not wanted, and i feel very unatractive. PLUS, i'm in my sexual peak right now. and hormones are flying left and right, and i cant help but be horny alot. thats really the only reason i'm awake right now. i'm just so horny and annoyed that i cant sleep. but the kicker is, if nicole wanted to have sex now, i'd get upset, becasue i'd feel like she is doing it because i got upset about it.
its like being between a rock and a hard place. no matter what i lose.
other that that, i'm doing ok. I really want a new car, and i want to get a better job. but who duznt... right?:P
i'm goign to end this though,
Good night, and farwell.