I say goodnight to him every night but I've never even seen his face.
It feels like this week is going to last forever,,
so much to do that's keeping from doing what I need.
finally got back in touch with Robinbird and we'll try to shoot next friday for thatbirdsnest and perhaps ishotmyself and of course MJ.
then of course wednesday I have another MJ shoot.. It's too much.. I don't have any time left... hey at least I'll have my tattoo done.. though it will be gross and scabby.
I came home from work and talked to Jamie. There's something I can't quite grasp though, and it's driving me crazy because you never really know a person online. just one more week and it'll be solved. I had a dream about him last night where he didn't have a mohawk instead he had hair that looked like mine all teased and blonde.. weird and I don't really remember but I think it involved sneaking forties into some sort of theater . I wish I could always remember my dreams
I stand around bored at work and think of ways to entertain myself or day dream about things I wish would happen... I think of things to fuck up there just because I'm so damn bored. But I won't do anything, because if it causes for drama and means more time I have to spend there... it's not worth it.
today everyone is meeting in philly for kaiti's birthday and I wish I could be there because all I want is to get the fuck out of here and back to where there is some sort of calm. even though some of the people there make me want to puke.
my painting looks so awesome.. but I'm not going to show you until it's all done...
so much to do that's keeping from doing what I need.
finally got back in touch with Robinbird and we'll try to shoot next friday for thatbirdsnest and perhaps ishotmyself and of course MJ.
then of course wednesday I have another MJ shoot.. It's too much.. I don't have any time left... hey at least I'll have my tattoo done.. though it will be gross and scabby.
I came home from work and talked to Jamie. There's something I can't quite grasp though, and it's driving me crazy because you never really know a person online. just one more week and it'll be solved. I had a dream about him last night where he didn't have a mohawk instead he had hair that looked like mine all teased and blonde.. weird and I don't really remember but I think it involved sneaking forties into some sort of theater . I wish I could always remember my dreams
I stand around bored at work and think of ways to entertain myself or day dream about things I wish would happen... I think of things to fuck up there just because I'm so damn bored. But I won't do anything, because if it causes for drama and means more time I have to spend there... it's not worth it.
today everyone is meeting in philly for kaiti's birthday and I wish I could be there because all I want is to get the fuck out of here and back to where there is some sort of calm. even though some of the people there make me want to puke.
my painting looks so awesome.. but I'm not going to show you until it's all done...