Tiffany's entry of the month
I'm so fucking cold right now. I got up, reluctantly, to come to class this morning and was rushing inside the door to get there on time, and slipped and fell down in the middle of the atrium. great.. Then I got to my classroom finally and it was completely empty, WTF? School is getting so hard. Its not that the classes are actually hard or anything, its that subconsciously I keep bringing myself back down.
My grandmother just got out of the hospital recently, w/ phumonia. Only 2 weeks before hand her last sister living died, and the week after that her oldest grandchild in town got married. I was a bridesmaid and looked just plain goofy.
Been really depressed lately but been trying to hide it from myself and others. I mean, Erica has a smaller lung and heart problems, my dad has congestive heart failure and continues to drink, my grandmother almost died, had congestive heart failure and phenumonia, and had to stop smoking, and i keep getting letters from the health dept. and indian rivers about missing appointments and them cutting me off my meds if i don't go, and abnormal after abnormals in the gyno area. my mothers stressing out so bad here lately, trying to take care of everyone else but herself, that i actually got into a pretty bad arguement with her the other day, and i think shes still mad at me.
On a lighter hand though, i haven't missed very many classes, and i passed my first tests. also i cleaned my car out VERY thouroughly the other day and got seat and stearing wheel covers to go in it, making it very blue and comfy. timothy said i should get some incense for it, which is true, i wonder if they make incense holders for cars? im sure i could make one if not. also im getting some pillows and a celestial tapestry to go in the back.
kevins job is going pretty good, well at least better. i think im bout to stop by there and see him right now.
DRUGS
ok, so im going to make an appointment with my therapist soon and finally come fucking clean with all the drug and alcohol shit. i mean why should i keep it from her anyway, it dosen't help. she might wind up trying to do something about it, but as long as my parents don't know, i'm fine with it. my mother really dosen't need anymore stress on her back.
main drug problem is shrooms. ive been making an ok bit of money off of them lately but they're just bringing me down more.
k, well gonna smoke, this has been my entry for the month.
My grandmother just got out of the hospital recently, w/ phumonia. Only 2 weeks before hand her last sister living died, and the week after that her oldest grandchild in town got married. I was a bridesmaid and looked just plain goofy.
Been really depressed lately but been trying to hide it from myself and others. I mean, Erica has a smaller lung and heart problems, my dad has congestive heart failure and continues to drink, my grandmother almost died, had congestive heart failure and phenumonia, and had to stop smoking, and i keep getting letters from the health dept. and indian rivers about missing appointments and them cutting me off my meds if i don't go, and abnormal after abnormals in the gyno area. my mothers stressing out so bad here lately, trying to take care of everyone else but herself, that i actually got into a pretty bad arguement with her the other day, and i think shes still mad at me.
On a lighter hand though, i haven't missed very many classes, and i passed my first tests. also i cleaned my car out VERY thouroughly the other day and got seat and stearing wheel covers to go in it, making it very blue and comfy. timothy said i should get some incense for it, which is true, i wonder if they make incense holders for cars? im sure i could make one if not. also im getting some pillows and a celestial tapestry to go in the back.
kevins job is going pretty good, well at least better. i think im bout to stop by there and see him right now.
DRUGS
ok, so im going to make an appointment with my therapist soon and finally come fucking clean with all the drug and alcohol shit. i mean why should i keep it from her anyway, it dosen't help. she might wind up trying to do something about it, but as long as my parents don't know, i'm fine with it. my mother really dosen't need anymore stress on her back.
main drug problem is shrooms. ive been making an ok bit of money off of them lately but they're just bringing me down more.
k, well gonna smoke, this has been my entry for the month.