it's cherry cherry red and it beats on time
i called my dr on friday (the neurologist) that prescribes all of my meds. she called the psychiatrist from school because he needed to speak to her about the Klonopin he wants me to strt taking once a day and i guess about my overall evaluation. he was gone when she called so she will call me around Tuesday when he is in. I have to go somehow pick up my Klonopin prescript. I guess Nick can go with me and tell my folks about all of this and so that they can get it filled for me.
i hope they dont put up too much of a fight.
i am so done with this semester. not doing work continues. i did a lot of psych work at the end of the week and i was proud of myself for doing that. now i have to study for finals. i hate studying. i just dont know how to. i much rather just be writing papers to be honest. this week is going to be a killer and then next week i have my bio final. then i am free until the 18th of Jan.
Monday-last bio class (review for final), big break consisting of a few hrs, no english, math (review for test)
tuesday-4th math test of the semester. all trig
wed.-math final. cumulitive. gaah.
thursday-3rd psych test on last 3 chapters covered
monday the 20th-100 mc question bio final spanning 20 chapters in the text
i also have to hand in my portfolio for english by the 20th consisting of 2 rewritten essays and a vocab list
and i have therapy with Jeanine at 11 tomorrow and we will meet on Thursday too at some point. She wants to see me a good amount before the big spring break. i plan on buying a journal (i have my eye on one at borders) and to write about my therapy sessions and jot down things that i need to tell her so i wont forget. esp. over the break. she is nice although she is young, about 22 or 23. only about 4 or 5 yrs older than me. kind of feels weird to be counseled by someone so close to be in age but i do like her a lot and we educate each other. i tell her a lot of things that she doesnt know about and vice versa. im glad i can inform her about a thing or two while she counsels me and tries to help me out. she is very approachable and goes out of her way a lot to make sure of certain thngs and making sure she helps me out.
monday night i am going to party. whether i do it alone or with some people i dont care.
i have such terrible concentration problems. i just feel out of it and fuzzy. it might be the meds. i dont know. esp. since i uped the Zoloft.
i wish my attitude towards college and doing work was like the first half of the semester. i was so pleased with college and worked around the clock. whereas now i have barely picked up bio and rarely look at my math stuff. i dont think i have opened the text in at least a mnth.
i think the fact that i did so much work for bio and only getting a 76 on the midterm really depressed me. i think i just said hey fuck it. and now i am in a hole.
i have to just force myself to buckle down this week and on the weekend. i dont know how but i have to. maybe i will stay at school extra long some days. sometimes doing work at school helps. the house can be distracting.
i have to go eat dinner. im not really hungry. my mom made ribs. i dont want to eat meat. i dont like meat. i dont care.
i hope they dont put up too much of a fight.
i am so done with this semester. not doing work continues. i did a lot of psych work at the end of the week and i was proud of myself for doing that. now i have to study for finals. i hate studying. i just dont know how to. i much rather just be writing papers to be honest. this week is going to be a killer and then next week i have my bio final. then i am free until the 18th of Jan.
Monday-last bio class (review for final), big break consisting of a few hrs, no english, math (review for test)
tuesday-4th math test of the semester. all trig
wed.-math final. cumulitive. gaah.
thursday-3rd psych test on last 3 chapters covered
monday the 20th-100 mc question bio final spanning 20 chapters in the text
i also have to hand in my portfolio for english by the 20th consisting of 2 rewritten essays and a vocab list
and i have therapy with Jeanine at 11 tomorrow and we will meet on Thursday too at some point. She wants to see me a good amount before the big spring break. i plan on buying a journal (i have my eye on one at borders) and to write about my therapy sessions and jot down things that i need to tell her so i wont forget. esp. over the break. she is nice although she is young, about 22 or 23. only about 4 or 5 yrs older than me. kind of feels weird to be counseled by someone so close to be in age but i do like her a lot and we educate each other. i tell her a lot of things that she doesnt know about and vice versa. im glad i can inform her about a thing or two while she counsels me and tries to help me out. she is very approachable and goes out of her way a lot to make sure of certain thngs and making sure she helps me out.
monday night i am going to party. whether i do it alone or with some people i dont care.
i have such terrible concentration problems. i just feel out of it and fuzzy. it might be the meds. i dont know. esp. since i uped the Zoloft.
i wish my attitude towards college and doing work was like the first half of the semester. i was so pleased with college and worked around the clock. whereas now i have barely picked up bio and rarely look at my math stuff. i dont think i have opened the text in at least a mnth.
i think the fact that i did so much work for bio and only getting a 76 on the midterm really depressed me. i think i just said hey fuck it. and now i am in a hole.
i have to just force myself to buckle down this week and on the weekend. i dont know how but i have to. maybe i will stay at school extra long some days. sometimes doing work at school helps. the house can be distracting.
i have to go eat dinner. im not really hungry. my mom made ribs. i dont want to eat meat. i dont like meat. i dont care.