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Apr 28, 2006 00:42

you know those nights when you just wish that you didn't have to be you anymore? that you could cast away all the your shortcomings and faults?

and i don't mean getting rid of the things that keep you from being some sort of model person or saint. i mean the things about yourself that irk you, that keep you from having more fun in life. the things like the awkwardness that irrationally assaults and binds you in certain situations when everyone else is fine, or the drive to do certain things that no one would think any less of you for NOT doing--that awful need to challenge yourself.

it's always night when these doubts creep up. and on those nights, you just wish you could be someone else, someone who wasn't so behind on certain things and who knew how to stop thinking and who know what she wanted out of life and who was comfortable in any situation and who had the intangible things that she sees everywhere around her that somehow she was just not given.

the only way to escape it is sleep, i think...
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