Enough already.

[raspberrycup]

i don't really understand this situation right now. am i being too nice to others by giving in every time or am i not? it feels like i really did but people just took it for granted. i don't understand why but day by day, it's very hard and hurtful for me already. it's not that i'm being that nice but, it's a matter on whose giving in and whose not. whether in quarrels, argument or even thinking about others feeling, i felt like i did give in on most of it but ended up, not appreciated. you see, it's getting perplexed for me already as i just don't understand what should i do and what choice is best for me. if i choose to win myself back, i will get everything shoot at me back. but if i choose to just give in, things will still shoot at me back and still, take advantage of me. the reason was because, i'm being too nice. not much of a talk, don't really argue back by just be patience and give in. maybe some people are used to that of me acting that way, that if any of this happens again, they will still keep on talking no matter how obvious that they have no points already. because they know, in the end i will give in. it's like as if they are scared to lose, and scared to be label as the wrong and problem person. it's like they are very coward something like that? well maybe that was why i chose to be this way because i really had enough with arguments when i know i will end up dead. same goes to the choice of arguing back. it's even more worse.

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school was such a whore. as i said at the previous post, i left with two days to complete my assignment. i did cramped myself up but the outcome was just a quarter of it that i'm done with. it's really annoying because the stupid school comp which was having a low ram makes my work to a lot of halt. left one day and i have not yet move on to the third scene. well besides that, at least something makes me happy even a tiny wee bit because i received good remarks on my video shooting. i was glad about that because most of my assignments i did was based on motion graphic. and so i tried to touch on video and voila! good remarks! heh. anyway, wednesday is the driving test day and i have not revise a bit. thursday/friday presentation for due assignment. goodness. it's really a stress week for me.

-and to baby, i love you.