I finally got sleep, now matter how unlikely I thought it.
So last night I went to bed before 9 and tried to sleep, since it's been forever since I've slept. But nope. Then I got up and fully colored the Page of Wands card and started the 10 of swords card and decided to try sleeping again. But I felt like someone was watching me. I look to my desk and in my chair I see a man. Granted, it is the shadow of a man, but the full body was there. And he was waving. And I FREAKED OUT. (There is nothing by my desk that can move like an arm... even if blown.) So I opened my phone for light (he was still there!) and pretended to leave to get a glass of water. As soon as I got out my door I quick turned on the hall and loft light and ran down the stairs to get my dad to go get rid of the man in the chair. But NOBODY WAS HOME. My dad didn't care when I told him. He said, "How nice!" and I was like, "NO! I want him OUT!" "Why?" "BECAUSE HE FREAKS ME THE FUCK OUT!!!" He listed all the other creepy things (related to death) that happened in my house this past week and went to bed. Ugh. I was convinced I wouldn't sleep after that. But managed to fall asleep with every light upstairs on. I did not feel safe anywhere in my house last night, and I am NOT afraid of the dark.
I overheard my dad talking to one of my aunt's best friends saying that they've given my aunt a week to live. That she refuses help and they're kicking her out of the hospital and suggest she get to a Hospice center or get in-home hospice. I hope nothing happens before I go down to FL or while I'm down there. That'd be terrible. Not that I'd know. They wouldn't tell me and there is no way of overhearing my father's conversation states away. (This is how I learned that my grandma died years ago. They didn't tell me. I overheard my dad making plans for her to be cremated. And when my dog died they didn't tell me either. They just wouldn't let me upstairs and I had to put 2 and 2 together.)
I am very agitated at my family.
I overheard my dad talking to one of my aunt's best friends saying that they've given my aunt a week to live. That she refuses help and they're kicking her out of the hospital and suggest she get to a Hospice center or get in-home hospice. I hope nothing happens before I go down to FL or while I'm down there. That'd be terrible. Not that I'd know. They wouldn't tell me and there is no way of overhearing my father's conversation states away. (This is how I learned that my grandma died years ago. They didn't tell me. I overheard my dad making plans for her to be cremated. And when my dog died they didn't tell me either. They just wouldn't let me upstairs and I had to put 2 and 2 together.)
I am very agitated at my family.