Rain.
Today is lazy Sunday(Which usually involves not leaving our apartment, movies, scrabble, and cooking deliciousness all day.) It's 11 and Kyle's still sleeping. I'm sitting here with the kitties, who are running around causing havoc, the usual. It's darker than it should be and so windy that the curtains are fluttering around on my back. Mugen's sitting next to me, calm and collected, watching the ongoing of the little ones, pretending he doesn't care but keeping a watchful eye on them just in case.
It feels good to be completely happy without even trying. Money is tight but that's not important. All the important things are right here, looking me square in the face; kitties that love us no matter what, a beautiful person that I sleep next to every night who supports me and keeps me safe and makes me happier than I could ever tell him, jobs that pay the rent, bicycles to let us have fun just doing nothing and riding around, and a lot of happy memories; making ugly faces and seeing who will laugh first, of picking out kitties, of epic games of Risk, of growing together, and being proud of one another.
It's started to rain, and it instantly got cooler and darker. It hasn't rained like this in awhile, it's a nice change. I wish it was warm rain, I would run outside, but as it is still "cold season" here, I will stay inside and watch from the living room window, safe and dry. I hope it starts thundering and lightning.
-E
Post script - I've deleted everything from before this point, it is unimportant, and mostly just makes me sad to think about. Goodbye past, It's been interesting.