Search your heart...search your soul
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So I love/hate feelings of nostalgia. Like listening to a bunch of songs from high school time, or freshman year time. BSB, DMB, Goo Goo Dolls, RHCP, RATM, Final Fantasy, some old school techno, Kci and JoJo, etc. It's kinda sad, cuz all that time is gone now.
What could have been? What should have been? What shouldn't!
So much craziness. But I miss it, still. Wild nights, wilder days, Wendy's, band trips, late-night phone calls, *walks*, movies, work, Subway, proms, breakups, sittin in the car chillin to music and not going to band, IB exams, graduation, competitions, football games, Xbox, surprise parties, losing my wallet...everywhere, picking out clothes for boys at the mall, stressing over Layton's terms and essays, speeding ticket "Uh I had a headache, that's why she was driving", Ocean Isle, almost going to Cherry Grove, Florida, Florida, Flori--oh, filming, talking about filming, editing, chemistry homework, college, dorm window-sill conversations, more breakups, band dances, Avalon #1, rainy days, ultimate frisbee, 1 on 1 on 1 on 1 on 1/2, learning stick shift, Blast and Rip, snow days, bomb threats, 4/20 and 4/30, flicking off Providence, experiencing Atlanta Bread Company's soup in a bread bowl, the loss of Hovan and half the good stuff at the mall, bowling, getting lost to go bowling, meeting new people, alcohol, friends coming to visit at college and cramming in our room, loss of a cell phone and running around Carowinds, the many visits at Carowinds, trying to get friend groups at Carowinds, folding shop drawings, Steak and Shake, AMC tornado warning (8th grade), Down to Earth and March 2-3, Env. Systems trip to the poo factory and a park, rock climbing at Inner Peaks and Crowder's Mtn...and all the issues with that, the Rave, bulletin board project due May 9 "David's in our group? You know it's gonna be May 8 and he's gonna say he can't help", community service, best friends, wrestling, RPs, diaries, humanities, scary 10th grade Medieval project issues with Brennon, crushes, planning a senior prank, Europe, Bermuda, Bahamas cruise, first kiss, bad decisions, A Christmas Carol, lockout, orchestra, Divine Comedy, driving to Sue's with David to "work on Env. Systems stuff" or look at stars, Christmas shopping, birthday parties, reading at the pool and seeing Sean and Nikki, the loss of diving boards, the return of diving boards!, visiting TJ at Windy Rush pool, "Alan, I think Anne and TJ have a thing", dyeing my hair, playing tennis, "Live life in the moment and to its fullest. Search for your own shining star."
And of course there are countless others. I could go on forever but everyone would take me off their friend lists cuz it'd be long and no one would care. It's fine if no one reads this bc this is for me. It's amazing what your brain retains.
Right now, there are many things going on. Some changes, all kinds of stress. But the key is to be patient. Love is patient. If something is meant to be, it will show itself. No rash decisions should ever be made. That's gotten plenty of ppl in trouble in the past. Anything can happen; let time be in charge, not you, because time is the ST; it will make the plot go the correct way and nothing you can do will stop it...short of suicide which is DUMB. Besides, you might get the best deal if you don't kill yourself, duhhh.
Anyway, no more writing, I should stop now.
So I love/hate feelings of nostalgia. Like listening to a bunch of songs from high school time, or freshman year time. BSB, DMB, Goo Goo Dolls, RHCP, RATM, Final Fantasy, some old school techno, Kci and JoJo, etc. It's kinda sad, cuz all that time is gone now.
What could have been? What should have been? What shouldn't!
So much craziness. But I miss it, still. Wild nights, wilder days, Wendy's, band trips, late-night phone calls, *walks*, movies, work, Subway, proms, breakups, sittin in the car chillin to music and not going to band, IB exams, graduation, competitions, football games, Xbox, surprise parties, losing my wallet...everywhere, picking out clothes for boys at the mall, stressing over Layton's terms and essays, speeding ticket "Uh I had a headache, that's why she was driving", Ocean Isle, almost going to Cherry Grove, Florida, Florida, Flori--oh, filming, talking about filming, editing, chemistry homework, college, dorm window-sill conversations, more breakups, band dances, Avalon #1, rainy days, ultimate frisbee, 1 on 1 on 1 on 1 on 1/2, learning stick shift, Blast and Rip, snow days, bomb threats, 4/20 and 4/30, flicking off Providence, experiencing Atlanta Bread Company's soup in a bread bowl, the loss of Hovan and half the good stuff at the mall, bowling, getting lost to go bowling, meeting new people, alcohol, friends coming to visit at college and cramming in our room, loss of a cell phone and running around Carowinds, the many visits at Carowinds, trying to get friend groups at Carowinds, folding shop drawings, Steak and Shake, AMC tornado warning (8th grade), Down to Earth and March 2-3, Env. Systems trip to the poo factory and a park, rock climbing at Inner Peaks and Crowder's Mtn...and all the issues with that, the Rave, bulletin board project due May 9 "David's in our group? You know it's gonna be May 8 and he's gonna say he can't help", community service, best friends, wrestling, RPs, diaries, humanities, scary 10th grade Medieval project issues with Brennon, crushes, planning a senior prank, Europe, Bermuda, Bahamas cruise, first kiss, bad decisions, A Christmas Carol, lockout, orchestra, Divine Comedy, driving to Sue's with David to "work on Env. Systems stuff" or look at stars, Christmas shopping, birthday parties, reading at the pool and seeing Sean and Nikki, the loss of diving boards, the return of diving boards!, visiting TJ at Windy Rush pool, "Alan, I think Anne and TJ have a thing", dyeing my hair, playing tennis, "Live life in the moment and to its fullest. Search for your own shining star."
And of course there are countless others. I could go on forever but everyone would take me off their friend lists cuz it'd be long and no one would care. It's fine if no one reads this bc this is for me. It's amazing what your brain retains.
Right now, there are many things going on. Some changes, all kinds of stress. But the key is to be patient. Love is patient. If something is meant to be, it will show itself. No rash decisions should ever be made. That's gotten plenty of ppl in trouble in the past. Anything can happen; let time be in charge, not you, because time is the ST; it will make the plot go the correct way and nothing you can do will stop it...short of suicide which is DUMB. Besides, you might get the best deal if you don't kill yourself, duhhh.
Anyway, no more writing, I should stop now.