Edited because it shows I wrote this early in the morning.
I have a girlfriend. I could just leave it at that much like my BTW, I moved out post....but I think I'll ramble for a bit. Bare with me.
The general reaction that I've received concerning a new person in my life is "what happened to boy?" So, much like my post about Michael, I'll start this one of with an explanation of the person proceeding Kelly (thats the new one's name). Michael is not gone, dead, evil, or broken hearted. We were never an offcial item and there was an agreement that seeing other people is a very very good option since we live SO far away and nothing can really come of "us" as we stand now. I however was reluctant to this idea...its very confusing to be in love with someone and to try and give energy into something new as well...at least for me. But...its been more and more obvious to me lately how not possible it would be for me to stay single, in love with someone so far away, and happy. That last one is the most important. My happiness isn't necessarily something I've put first. I'm not a selfless person....far from. But when it comes to relationships I'm prone to ignoring my needs...I'm refusing to do that. So...this revelation that dating someone is a good idea...really came at a great time.
I've been talking to Kelly on OkCupid for a few weeks. Edit: Holy shit it's been a month...how times flies
Now, this is worth taking notice of for one reason...I don't email. If you've ever tried to keep in touch with me via email only...you know this. I'm terrible at it. I'll respond a couple times, then nothing. Kelly doesn't have interneting at home so IM wasn't an option...I kept up on emails. Woah. But I felt like kind of a tease cause in the back of my mind I was thinking....Rachelle you can't date, what are you doing? Well, when she sugested a meeting, that attitude had changed. Good timing! So we met on Tuesday. Out to dinner and then up to this beautiful spot called Rocky Butte on a hilltop in Portland. Five hours...we talked the whole time. No akward pauses, I felt so comfortable with her. I was talking about things I hadn't said in years, things I didn't even realize that I had bottled away. So hey...that was my first first date experiance...I've gotta say, think I did pretty damn well.
I had to see her again. And I did, oh my did I. I spent the vast majority of the weekend with her. Happy happy me. We went to a party at her friends house, what an amazing night. Really interesting, caring wonderful people plus elderberry wine, drumming, guitar and wooden flute jam sessions and talk of astrology makes for an experiance I won't soon be forgetting. And all the while growing more and more infatuated with this wonderful human being. I want you all to meet her...I really do. She's blown my socks right off...I'm really quite excited to see where this takes me.