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So, I'm back. Trip to St. Louis...hmm what to say what to say. I dont know yet, I've got other things on my mind. It was a great trip and I'll post about it later, but I'm really freaking out about stuff right now.
I falied Organic. This is known. That kinda fucks with things cause I need that series for get my degree. I think. Who knows, it doesn't transfer directly with Oregon. In fact, nothing having to do with science did. My bio is fine cause I already had credit for that down there (why'd I take it again? I was contemplating never tranfering my Oregon transcript ever....yeah thats a really stupid idea. Oh well I loved the classes) Physics actually did transfer as something, just the level below what I needed for my major. And all my Chem? Yeah that was just general science credit. That means that two years....boils down to I got my social sciences done. Um. Yeah thats not good enough. I would be taking more than normal class loads just to finish in ANOTHER three years. When I read the transfer evaluation I punched a wall. And cried. And stormed about for a while. And tried to figure out how in the world this was going to work. And cried some more. And then I snapped and just went outside and played on the swings. I had to let go, especially if I was going to continue to enjoy my trip and even possibly engage in the con. And I did and it was wonderful but being back home things need to get sorted out.
Can I really go to a school that is going to make me retake lab classes and work my ass off to retake classes that I shouldn't have to? Should I really be making my parents pay out of state for that? I really want to go back to Oregon...but is that really the best choice?
I don't know anymore. I pissed off my OChem professor by being a failure so I've kinda lost an ally in the fight against the dumbass transfer people. So thats going to be even harder. Maybe the second I contest the evaluation they'll be like oh ok...so I guess it's worth a shot. But do I have other options?
If not Oregon I'd want to stay instate. I've spent enough of my parents money. But, central and eastern and wsu, hell no. I like being on the west side of the state. That leaves UW, western, evergreen, and....WSUV. UW I would never get into. Western I haven't looked into at all. Evergreen....AHAHAHAHHAHA for a science major? Yeah i'm sure they don't even have a bio degree. WSUV. hmmm. It looks like they take all the stuff I've done at Clark cause of the institute and all. (if you don't know what I'm talking about don't worry) I could keep my job. I could still get my degree only one year over expected. It would be a HELL of a lot cheaper.
But I don't want to live at home. And I'd be going to school where my mother works and thats a little weird. I really don't mind the thought of being around here longer though. I do love Portland a ridiculous amount. Maybe I could find a cheap apartment and my parents would help me pay for it cause I don't work nearly enough to do so on my own. I'd need to get another job. The way things are going with Athena I wouldn't be making enough just to support my transportation, and my lab job will be gone cause I won't be a Clark student anymore.
The other, and big con for me, is how fickle I feel. I want to go to UW, no back to Oregon, no maybe not, I dont fucking know. I've gone back and forth so much and it just annoys me. Am I just running when the going gets tough? Or am I doing the right thing by looking for alternatives? GAH!
Plan of action: Put moderate effort into Oregon. They say to talk to the registrar and if that isn't good enough bring syllabi to the department heads. I'll do that. But I don't think I'll stage protests and demand placement tests and what not. If the outlook is good after whatever corrections I can get, then thats a good plan.
Talk to an advisor at WSUV. See what the next couple years would look like there.
Talk to parents about all of this. I'm going to need their help no matter what I do.
Whew...yeah, any thoughts or opinions are very much welcome.
I falied Organic. This is known. That kinda fucks with things cause I need that series for get my degree. I think. Who knows, it doesn't transfer directly with Oregon. In fact, nothing having to do with science did. My bio is fine cause I already had credit for that down there (why'd I take it again? I was contemplating never tranfering my Oregon transcript ever....yeah thats a really stupid idea. Oh well I loved the classes) Physics actually did transfer as something, just the level below what I needed for my major. And all my Chem? Yeah that was just general science credit. That means that two years....boils down to I got my social sciences done. Um. Yeah thats not good enough. I would be taking more than normal class loads just to finish in ANOTHER three years. When I read the transfer evaluation I punched a wall. And cried. And stormed about for a while. And tried to figure out how in the world this was going to work. And cried some more. And then I snapped and just went outside and played on the swings. I had to let go, especially if I was going to continue to enjoy my trip and even possibly engage in the con. And I did and it was wonderful but being back home things need to get sorted out.
Can I really go to a school that is going to make me retake lab classes and work my ass off to retake classes that I shouldn't have to? Should I really be making my parents pay out of state for that? I really want to go back to Oregon...but is that really the best choice?
I don't know anymore. I pissed off my OChem professor by being a failure so I've kinda lost an ally in the fight against the dumbass transfer people. So thats going to be even harder. Maybe the second I contest the evaluation they'll be like oh ok...so I guess it's worth a shot. But do I have other options?
If not Oregon I'd want to stay instate. I've spent enough of my parents money. But, central and eastern and wsu, hell no. I like being on the west side of the state. That leaves UW, western, evergreen, and....WSUV. UW I would never get into. Western I haven't looked into at all. Evergreen....AHAHAHAHHAHA for a science major? Yeah i'm sure they don't even have a bio degree. WSUV. hmmm. It looks like they take all the stuff I've done at Clark cause of the institute and all. (if you don't know what I'm talking about don't worry) I could keep my job. I could still get my degree only one year over expected. It would be a HELL of a lot cheaper.
But I don't want to live at home. And I'd be going to school where my mother works and thats a little weird. I really don't mind the thought of being around here longer though. I do love Portland a ridiculous amount. Maybe I could find a cheap apartment and my parents would help me pay for it cause I don't work nearly enough to do so on my own. I'd need to get another job. The way things are going with Athena I wouldn't be making enough just to support my transportation, and my lab job will be gone cause I won't be a Clark student anymore.
The other, and big con for me, is how fickle I feel. I want to go to UW, no back to Oregon, no maybe not, I dont fucking know. I've gone back and forth so much and it just annoys me. Am I just running when the going gets tough? Or am I doing the right thing by looking for alternatives? GAH!
Plan of action: Put moderate effort into Oregon. They say to talk to the registrar and if that isn't good enough bring syllabi to the department heads. I'll do that. But I don't think I'll stage protests and demand placement tests and what not. If the outlook is good after whatever corrections I can get, then thats a good plan.
Talk to an advisor at WSUV. See what the next couple years would look like there.
Talk to parents about all of this. I'm going to need their help no matter what I do.
Whew...yeah, any thoughts or opinions are very much welcome.