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Life sucks so much. Just when you think that everything is rainbowns and roses and that you found the most perfect guy in the wolrd, he rips your heart out, breaks it in a milliom pieces and throws it back in your face. I thought he was the greatest guy in the world but he hurt me so much. I don't know what to do anymore, I've tried so hard for him to be happy I know everyone knows that and I ignored all the things that people and friends told me. "no you guys won't last forever" or "dont get too attached" or "he's not good for you" or "he'll hurt you" but i never listened. Now look at me...I feel like crap. I gave him everything I could but now he does this. Is love really the tragedy that makes you break until you can't and do something you'll forever regret? I loved with all my heart, body and soul and hell I still do but he just can't see that! He used to be so sweet and just romantic and great but he had been pushing me away. Before it was like this: SaiyanPrince9287 [6:51 PM]: "i miss your beautiful face, and your silky hair, and you lucious lips, and your smooth skin, and your warming personality, and heartmelting smile and...well, the list goes on and on" But now he doesn't even want to touch my hand. Letting go of someone special is one of tha hardest things you'll ever have to experience and I can't do it I'm not strong I'm just not!! Oh ryan ryan if you count all the stars in the sky, all the grains of sand in the oceans, all the roses in the world, all the laughs and all the smiles that have ever been, then you will have a tiny small sample of how much I love you. Forget his name, forget his face, forget his kiss, forget the love that you once knew. Remeber he has sumone new. Forget him when they play ur song. Remeber when you cried all night long,forget how close u once were. Remember he has chosen her. Forget you memorized his walk, forget the way he used to talk, forget the things he used to say,remember he's not there. Forget his laugh, forget his grin, forget the dimples on his chin, forget the way he used to hold you, remember he is with her tonight. Forget the time that went so fast, and the love that moved you past. Forget when he said he'd never leave u, remember he's gone..yes and he said he'd never leave me but he did he promised me so many thing and swore he'd never leave and I believed him I trusted him I gave him my heart blindly but he left me, I know not for someone else but he still left me. I love him so much so much it hurts I'd give up anything for him ANYTHING but he doesn't understand that. I still do love him but he just doesn't understand that. I don't know if he likes seeing me sobbing nad crying but it just seems like he does..he hates me but I love him more that anything. I love him. I LOVE HIM. I love him