Introspective
So let's talk about the truth. Life seems to deal me all sorts of cards. Some are good, bad, and wild. I've taken the good with the bad, and ran with the wild. I've made some choices this past year that have changed my life drastically. I've had doubts about them from time to time, but I'm a better person for them, I'm happier because of them.
I learned a lot of things last year. I learned about love, trust, and companionship. This year I've learned to cope with loss, disillusion, responsibility, and enlightenment. I've become a new person, I can feel it. I needed to be by myself, I need to learn how to like me before I can like anyone else. I can honestly say that I like who I am, not just physically. I never thought I was a good person, I know better now.
I can stand on my own two feet, no help from anyone and I'm ecstatic about it! I have a great job, "Accounts Receivable Specialist" , ha! I'm going to school and working my little butt off, finally picked a major, a good one!. I have goals, realistic ones. When it comes to my love life, hmmm, I've been doing pretty good. I've dated some very nice guys. My last relationship ended because once trust is destroyed, there really was no way to get that back. I had become a person that I didn't particularly like, a jealous one. I realized though that even had that no transpired it wouldn't have lasted, there were too many faults in the relationship.
I know now how important trust really is. I've had a hard time getting involved with guys, mainly because I'm scared of being hurt. I see a negative and I bolt for the door! I just wasn't ready to face a new relationship. I’ve always been afraid of being hurt but now I’m a stronger person, it doesn’t scare me as much. I think I’m ready to start something now, emotionally. Whether or not I have the time is another issue. I figure if it’s meant to happen it will. I’m happy, happier then I’ve been in a while.
I’ll be moving out in a matter of months too. I’m buying a new car sooner then that. Everything is coming together, I’m coming together.
I learned a lot of things last year. I learned about love, trust, and companionship. This year I've learned to cope with loss, disillusion, responsibility, and enlightenment. I've become a new person, I can feel it. I needed to be by myself, I need to learn how to like me before I can like anyone else. I can honestly say that I like who I am, not just physically. I never thought I was a good person, I know better now.
I can stand on my own two feet, no help from anyone and I'm ecstatic about it! I have a great job, "Accounts Receivable Specialist" , ha! I'm going to school and working my little butt off, finally picked a major, a good one!. I have goals, realistic ones. When it comes to my love life, hmmm, I've been doing pretty good. I've dated some very nice guys. My last relationship ended because once trust is destroyed, there really was no way to get that back. I had become a person that I didn't particularly like, a jealous one. I realized though that even had that no transpired it wouldn't have lasted, there were too many faults in the relationship.
I know now how important trust really is. I've had a hard time getting involved with guys, mainly because I'm scared of being hurt. I see a negative and I bolt for the door! I just wasn't ready to face a new relationship. I’ve always been afraid of being hurt but now I’m a stronger person, it doesn’t scare me as much. I think I’m ready to start something now, emotionally. Whether or not I have the time is another issue. I figure if it’s meant to happen it will. I’m happy, happier then I’ve been in a while.
I’ll be moving out in a matter of months too. I’m buying a new car sooner then that. Everything is coming together, I’m coming together.