Pain
Why do I allow people to hurt me so much? Everyone I know, with the exception of only my cousins, has at one point hurt me. And I can't stop it. I just keep trusting and loving until they break me, and then I start it all over again. You read these books and watch movies about people who can build a fortress up around their heart, and you pity these people because they don't allow themselves to love. Well,I want to be one of them. I wish that just once I could put up those walls that will stop the pain from coming in so fast and so hard. But I can't.
Who's hurting me so much right now? Brandon. It's crazy, I don't even care really about Brannon being mad at me, that's understandable and was completely expected. Well, I guess I sorta knew that Brandon wouldn't like it either. That was the hardest part about breaking up with Brannon... I knew that I wouldn't only be losing my boyfriend, but I'd be losing my friend that I really do care about and love too. God this is so unfair. At least I'm not crying. Dalena's keeping me from that. Plus, I don't want my parents to walk through the door and see me with blue mascara streaks running down my face.
I can't do this. I have to stop.
Who's hurting me so much right now? Brandon. It's crazy, I don't even care really about Brannon being mad at me, that's understandable and was completely expected. Well, I guess I sorta knew that Brandon wouldn't like it either. That was the hardest part about breaking up with Brannon... I knew that I wouldn't only be losing my boyfriend, but I'd be losing my friend that I really do care about and love too. God this is so unfair. At least I'm not crying. Dalena's keeping me from that. Plus, I don't want my parents to walk through the door and see me with blue mascara streaks running down my face.
I can't do this. I have to stop.