Binging Lately
I had a three-day weekend, and you know what that means!
tons of weed!
Fortnite!
9 1/2-hour stream!
stuffing myself until my stomach is about to explode!
rasslin!
12-hour stream!
chevre and honey!
passing out uncontrollably!
I weighed myself today and... 150 lbs. HOLY SHIT. That's the most I've weighed since coming to Hawaii. And the most in recent memory. The absolute most I've ever weighed was 175 right after high school (the "Freshman 15" more like "Freshman 55"). JFC. I'm about 25 pounds overweight at the moment. Weighing myself today was shocking and sad.
Things that need to happen are:
Diet change. No red meat. Low white meat.
Lifestyle change. Already meditating 3-4 times a week. Need daily.
Exercise. I NEED EXERCISE.
I'm about to get laser tattoo removal. This will help my anxiety and also help me wear more feminine clothes. And DRESSES. I can't wait until my stupid boy tattoos are gone and I can confidently wear sexy gorgeous dresses. To go with my sexy, gorgeous IN SHAPE body that I will start working on I HAVE TO START NOW RIGHT THIS MOMENT. 150. Jesus.