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So...I am back and worse than ever. I am more overweight, I am lazy, and I am getting worse.
But
I know I am.
The hardest step is to admit that I am not making progress, and that I am NOT helping myself by dreaming of the impossible while not trying to make it happen.
While dreams are wonderful I need to work to attain them.
One thing that I've been working on is updating my blogs (tumblr and lj and now this one) as well as getting myself a little better in general.
I make a lot of excuses for myself. I'm sick, I'm tired, I just need "me" time to sit back and relax. But really? What is that helping? If I had actually tried a year ago like I said I would day after day after day, I would be tiny now and would feel so much better and look way better.
But here I am, still grossly overweight, and hating my body and even myself for it. But now, I recognize. I understand. I am aware. And I think that is 50% of the battle right there. I am going to make this work, I am going to work with myself and work to make myself a better person. I can do it, I want to do it, and I will do it.
But
I know I am.
The hardest step is to admit that I am not making progress, and that I am NOT helping myself by dreaming of the impossible while not trying to make it happen.
While dreams are wonderful I need to work to attain them.
One thing that I've been working on is updating my blogs (tumblr and lj and now this one) as well as getting myself a little better in general.
I make a lot of excuses for myself. I'm sick, I'm tired, I just need "me" time to sit back and relax. But really? What is that helping? If I had actually tried a year ago like I said I would day after day after day, I would be tiny now and would feel so much better and look way better.
But here I am, still grossly overweight, and hating my body and even myself for it. But now, I recognize. I understand. I am aware. And I think that is 50% of the battle right there. I am going to make this work, I am going to work with myself and work to make myself a better person. I can do it, I want to do it, and I will do it.