wasting time.
yeah. so im tired. bored. and waiting for the shower, but my brothers in it. so ill just update?
i dont even remember if i already updated of my vacation. but whatever. it was ok. i need to give it more credit than i did. cus even though i worked almost everyday and still had lessons, and a sleep study, and tons of just absolute crap to do. it was more relaxing than nothing would have been.
but now. its waay over. im back to life. which is kinda nice. less time to dwell on the negative cus i have to keep going. but im only a few days in and i feel like i need to become the energizer bunny.. awkward, i know. however i have good reason! everything is happening at the same time. and i can't for the life of me figure out why, but i havent been in a good state of mind since like november, just things on the mind i guess.??? but now districts is like 6 days away. and all state auditions right after that. and then the ACDA honor choir after that. and then in there chorale and the choruses are having a performance and thats more music to learn plus accompanying one/two songs. and then theater, and then percussion, jazz band, voice lessons, piano lessons, gym days w/ the bonnster, chamber choir, and newspaper (which is more work than you would think when you're asst. editor.) and then on top of all of that. i have homework, a JOB, and youth group. i mean. im president of youth group and i've 100% neglected it this year. and i feel sooo bad.
i think its just overwelming. but i thought it was every year. this year just seems different. i slip into a weird mood and yeah. half of it is cus im to tired to function and talk . but i dunno. i think about things. and well. what do you want? i guess tis the season for that, already.
lets just say. two years next month. and there's the biggest regret you could ever even feel hanging over me shoulder. cus im a scared to death dumbass. but. thats. freaking. life.
ok. shower's open.
i gotta go.
cus im working again. 9-5. leave it.
come visit. that would make my day.
i dont even remember if i already updated of my vacation. but whatever. it was ok. i need to give it more credit than i did. cus even though i worked almost everyday and still had lessons, and a sleep study, and tons of just absolute crap to do. it was more relaxing than nothing would have been.
but now. its waay over. im back to life. which is kinda nice. less time to dwell on the negative cus i have to keep going. but im only a few days in and i feel like i need to become the energizer bunny.. awkward, i know. however i have good reason! everything is happening at the same time. and i can't for the life of me figure out why, but i havent been in a good state of mind since like november, just things on the mind i guess.??? but now districts is like 6 days away. and all state auditions right after that. and then the ACDA honor choir after that. and then in there chorale and the choruses are having a performance and thats more music to learn plus accompanying one/two songs. and then theater, and then percussion, jazz band, voice lessons, piano lessons, gym days w/ the bonnster, chamber choir, and newspaper (which is more work than you would think when you're asst. editor.) and then on top of all of that. i have homework, a JOB, and youth group. i mean. im president of youth group and i've 100% neglected it this year. and i feel sooo bad.
i think its just overwelming. but i thought it was every year. this year just seems different. i slip into a weird mood and yeah. half of it is cus im to tired to function and talk . but i dunno. i think about things. and well. what do you want? i guess tis the season for that, already.
lets just say. two years next month. and there's the biggest regret you could ever even feel hanging over me shoulder. cus im a scared to death dumbass. but. thats. freaking. life.
ok. shower's open.
i gotta go.
cus im working again. 9-5. leave it.
come visit. that would make my day.